Sensitization
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Hello. Not sure if I am posting in the right section, since I consider the genuine success story is when you have sex with a female, which is something I have yet to pluck up the courage to try again. Anyway, I thought I should get my story out in the open and also talk about my 45 days of no PMO. Any comments, feedback, agreements and disagreements are truly welcome and appreciated.
Let me start by saying how thankful I am to this community and this website. I really thought I was lost and alone and that my problem would stay with me forever. However, the site has provided me with vital information and explanations, and reading the success stories has motivated me no end to get rid of this disease.
I am 27. PIED has cunningly sneaked into my life four years ago (after about two years of high-speed internet). I used to be a heavy drinker and also went through some tough times four years ago, so I prescribed my failure to perform three or four times to those things,as I never had any performance anxiety. I had a successful intercourse a few times (mostly with pills), but I felt deep inside there was an issue as my libido was rather low and it almost felt artificial as it would truly wake up only when watching new sick stuff on the internet. I thought the things were improving about a year ago when I was able to perform and felt really good about my erections for a few weeks. However, end of November last year, I ended up at some girl's place and again failed. Now, I did drink about 0.4 litres of vodka and smoked some weed and could blame it on them and it passed since the girl was with me all the time and saw my intakes for herself, but deep inside, I just knew the problem is there and it's real. So, as soon as I found this website, I knew instantly: That's it, this is the issue.
It has always been easy for me to get girls. This is not to boast, but to stress how FRUSTRATING it is to have them offering to give you a ride home, come and 'cook for you' or 'show you their new underwear' and you have to either deny them or make up some things because you know it's unlikely you'll be able to perform. I am telling you, it's an absolute nightmare. For all we achieve in life, if we suck in the game of love and sex, we are nothing as men (unless you are an Einstein, a Hawking or a Gandhi, etc). Anyway, I decided to embark on this road and hope for the best.
Here is how it went.
Days 1 to 7: I felt urges, but resisted easily. I knew I would feel like a loser if I gave up so early. Got a few morning erections. Nothing during the day.
Days 7-28: Flatline. The funny thing about this flatline is: I realised I had been in flatline for four years. It felt almost 100% same. It's just that in the past I would watch 10 porns at once and think: Wow, I am so horny! I rock! I had one wet dream (Day 25)
Days 28-45: Libido came back stronger than ever. The real healthy manly libido, an almost prehistoric innate urge to penetrate a female. The only natural libido directed solely to the human contact. I cannot begin to describe how good it feels to be back again. I am not going to elaborate too much on how relieved and powerful I feel, because I know this is a lifelong thing, I am only on day 45 and I have yet to put this into practise with a girl. Wet dream - Day 40.
Regrets: This kind of libido can be a struggle sometimes. After touching myself a bit (not edging or M, just literally touching myself for a few seconds at a time), I could no longer bear it and I MO on days 37 and 44. The first time I didn't use my right hand at all, because I think, while PMO is the real culprit for our problems, sensitizing yourself only to your hand is also an issue. The second time I did use my right hand and I feel guilty about it. But, the morning erections are there, I feel good, capable and in control and I think I will put myself to test in a couple of weeks with some girl.
Anyway, to sum it up:
The Good:
45 DAYS NO PMO (not a single motion picture crossed my eyes or even my mind)
Regular morning erections (sometimes lasting for up to 20 minutes in almost unchanged solidity)
An increasingly touch-sensitive manhood (I modified my post to include this since it happened moments ago while I urinated and I believe it is a strong indication of improvement)
Through-the-roof libido
Attraction to and imagination of regular girls
Libido-boosting diet: Each day: Olive oil. Fish oil. 10 pieces of nuts, peanuts and almonds. Natural nettle-based circulation-boosting drops. L-Arginine (some people say it does nothing, but even if there is a placebo effect, it is good enough for me at this stage). ZMA (some people say it does nothing, but even if there is a placebo effect, it is good enough for me at this stage). I cycle the last two, so as not to create a resistance to their possible effect. I would recommend including the libido-boosters in your diet. On a mental level, you will feel more in control and as if you are ticking off more useful things during the day. On a physical level...well, they are boosting your libido and work great with no PMO.
The Bad:
2 MOs
Read escort reviews for a few days (this is now ironed out thanks to K9 blocker)
There you have it, that was my story in short (as short as I could tell it, really, there are so many other details regarding my struggles but maybe some other time, when this is all over for sure). As I said, I would appreciate comments, feedback and ADVICE and also if someone could tell me if two MOs and a couple of hours in total that I spent reading the escort reviews could put a significant dampener on my road to complete recovery.
All the best. Stay strong, this thing works!
Let me start by saying how thankful I am to this community and this website. I really thought I was lost and alone and that my problem would stay with me forever. However, the site has provided me with vital information and explanations, and reading the success stories has motivated me no end to get rid of this disease.
I am 27. PIED has cunningly sneaked into my life four years ago (after about two years of high-speed internet). I used to be a heavy drinker and also went through some tough times four years ago, so I prescribed my failure to perform three or four times to those things,as I never had any performance anxiety. I had a successful intercourse a few times (mostly with pills), but I felt deep inside there was an issue as my libido was rather low and it almost felt artificial as it would truly wake up only when watching new sick stuff on the internet. I thought the things were improving about a year ago when I was able to perform and felt really good about my erections for a few weeks. However, end of November last year, I ended up at some girl's place and again failed. Now, I did drink about 0.4 litres of vodka and smoked some weed and could blame it on them and it passed since the girl was with me all the time and saw my intakes for herself, but deep inside, I just knew the problem is there and it's real. So, as soon as I found this website, I knew instantly: That's it, this is the issue.
It has always been easy for me to get girls. This is not to boast, but to stress how FRUSTRATING it is to have them offering to give you a ride home, come and 'cook for you' or 'show you their new underwear' and you have to either deny them or make up some things because you know it's unlikely you'll be able to perform. I am telling you, it's an absolute nightmare. For all we achieve in life, if we suck in the game of love and sex, we are nothing as men (unless you are an Einstein, a Hawking or a Gandhi, etc). Anyway, I decided to embark on this road and hope for the best.
Here is how it went.
Days 1 to 7: I felt urges, but resisted easily. I knew I would feel like a loser if I gave up so early. Got a few morning erections. Nothing during the day.
Days 7-28: Flatline. The funny thing about this flatline is: I realised I had been in flatline for four years. It felt almost 100% same. It's just that in the past I would watch 10 porns at once and think: Wow, I am so horny! I rock! I had one wet dream (Day 25)
Days 28-45: Libido came back stronger than ever. The real healthy manly libido, an almost prehistoric innate urge to penetrate a female. The only natural libido directed solely to the human contact. I cannot begin to describe how good it feels to be back again. I am not going to elaborate too much on how relieved and powerful I feel, because I know this is a lifelong thing, I am only on day 45 and I have yet to put this into practise with a girl. Wet dream - Day 40.
Regrets: This kind of libido can be a struggle sometimes. After touching myself a bit (not edging or M, just literally touching myself for a few seconds at a time), I could no longer bear it and I MO on days 37 and 44. The first time I didn't use my right hand at all, because I think, while PMO is the real culprit for our problems, sensitizing yourself only to your hand is also an issue. The second time I did use my right hand and I feel guilty about it. But, the morning erections are there, I feel good, capable and in control and I think I will put myself to test in a couple of weeks with some girl.
Anyway, to sum it up:
The Good:
45 DAYS NO PMO (not a single motion picture crossed my eyes or even my mind)
Regular morning erections (sometimes lasting for up to 20 minutes in almost unchanged solidity)
An increasingly touch-sensitive manhood (I modified my post to include this since it happened moments ago while I urinated and I believe it is a strong indication of improvement)
Through-the-roof libido
Attraction to and imagination of regular girls
Libido-boosting diet: Each day: Olive oil. Fish oil. 10 pieces of nuts, peanuts and almonds. Natural nettle-based circulation-boosting drops. L-Arginine (some people say it does nothing, but even if there is a placebo effect, it is good enough for me at this stage). ZMA (some people say it does nothing, but even if there is a placebo effect, it is good enough for me at this stage). I cycle the last two, so as not to create a resistance to their possible effect. I would recommend including the libido-boosters in your diet. On a mental level, you will feel more in control and as if you are ticking off more useful things during the day. On a physical level...well, they are boosting your libido and work great with no PMO.
The Bad:
2 MOs
Read escort reviews for a few days (this is now ironed out thanks to K9 blocker)
There you have it, that was my story in short (as short as I could tell it, really, there are so many other details regarding my struggles but maybe some other time, when this is all over for sure). As I said, I would appreciate comments, feedback and ADVICE and also if someone could tell me if two MOs and a couple of hours in total that I spent reading the escort reviews could put a significant dampener on my road to complete recovery.
All the best. Stay strong, this thing works!