Hello.
I've been reading all of your stories here on Reboot nation and read so much on YBP and its helped me alot. Recently I read somewhere here that getting a Pblocker called k9 web protection is very good. I installed it, created a temp. email address to set it up and a password I no longer remember. As I progress through my reboot, I'll force myself to deal with the withdrawls and NOT GIVE in. I know that every time I don't relapse I get little bit stronger and my willpower goes up.
Little background on me:
I'm twenty seven years old, still a virgin though been with a woman, just never got to the point of sex because we felt weren't ready yet. I started viewing internet porn when I was ~15, during Highschool. It didnt escalate or become too serious until I moved out on my own. It seemed that when you live with someone, theres a level of accountability and shame and you have less of it when you live by yourself.
For the last 8 years I've been going up and down like a rollercoaster. I would have periods of months in a year of no PMO then a trigger will cause me to relapse.
I think it got worse when I lost my job last year. I'm employed now, thank God, but during my unemployment, PMO was harder to resist
Also, when I relapsing, I would buy 1-2 subs to Psites, then cancel it like a day after I buy it. I've done this repeatedly. I think i probably spent 200 dollars on P last year.
I not only want to reduce that to 0 this year but give my Brain rest and fully reboot, and STAY the hell away from P.
But this will be my online journal.
1st goal is a week.
Then 2 weeks
then 1 month...
I've been reading all of your stories here on Reboot nation and read so much on YBP and its helped me alot. Recently I read somewhere here that getting a Pblocker called k9 web protection is very good. I installed it, created a temp. email address to set it up and a password I no longer remember. As I progress through my reboot, I'll force myself to deal with the withdrawls and NOT GIVE in. I know that every time I don't relapse I get little bit stronger and my willpower goes up.
Little background on me:
I'm twenty seven years old, still a virgin though been with a woman, just never got to the point of sex because we felt weren't ready yet. I started viewing internet porn when I was ~15, during Highschool. It didnt escalate or become too serious until I moved out on my own. It seemed that when you live with someone, theres a level of accountability and shame and you have less of it when you live by yourself.
For the last 8 years I've been going up and down like a rollercoaster. I would have periods of months in a year of no PMO then a trigger will cause me to relapse.
I think it got worse when I lost my job last year. I'm employed now, thank God, but during my unemployment, PMO was harder to resist
Also, when I relapsing, I would buy 1-2 subs to Psites, then cancel it like a day after I buy it. I've done this repeatedly. I think i probably spent 200 dollars on P last year.
I not only want to reduce that to 0 this year but give my Brain rest and fully reboot, and STAY the hell away from P.
But this will be my online journal.
1st goal is a week.
Then 2 weeks
then 1 month...