looking for "hot" GF due to porn and sex addiction

[nannitac]

hi everybody, my addiction started approx. 14 years ago (during first 3-4 years it was porn addiction with escalation to fetish shemale than i moved to real sex addiction to prostitutes, shemales and sexcam). i defenetely believe my addiction to porn and sex hijacked my tastes even when i look for GF to have commeitted relationship.
In general feel aroused looking at girls with big tits or in general girls that dress, behave, talk in a quite slutty way (more or less same kind of girls you find in porn movies or work as street prostitutes). Once i was in a party with friends, i noticed a woman not beautiful but with big boobs, red hair and really dressed as a slut...i felt aroused looking at her, when i comment with friends they start laughting saying "are you crazy? it s rediculous, she look like SW slut.
i tried to have committed relationship with sober and simple girls in the past, but even if they were nice after awhile i felt bored or sexually disintherested. some months ago i had frequent sex with a streetworker and  for awhile i was in a "committed" relation with her, then i realized how crazy it was.
I am currently flatlining and desire to have GF like porn actress is actually is decreasing...i m starting to lloking and show some genuine interest at nice sober girls.
So based on my experience i would say:
- porn escalation during years can change your sexual tastes (I feel attraction to shemale mainly due to it). this subject is discussed widely even in YBOP site
- after PMO ing for years lloking at hot, naughty, slutty girls  i  started feeling i could be be happy also in committed realtion with girls looks like pornstar, i thinked to need someone that can give me similar thrill of porn and promiscous sex even in a committed relationship .
  for that reason  for awhile i engaged (of course unsuccessfully) with lap dancer and a street worker prostitute.
any of you have similar experiences?

 

[ilovemyhand]

any of you have similar experiences?

Oh, I think many do, my friend... In fact, I've read stories from quite many who've got addicted to (shemale) prostitutes or that their tastes in women have changed because of porn.

Personally I never really started dating with anyone like a lap dancer or a street worker prostitute, but my standards for beauty were definitely heavily influenced by porn - I just didn't find normal girls sexual at all.

 

[nannitac]

i would say that porn and sex addiction to prostitutes not only changed my standard of beauty but convinced me for awhile  that could feel good in relation only with such girls. Just to give you an example i started dating with a very sexy girl (not lapdancer or prostitute actually), she was brilliant red hair, hot body and she like a lot wear sexy skirts and high heels, she often got drunk and even in front of me flirted with other guys...that kind of girl that everybody wants to have sex but not as GF since too much eye catching. Apart from that she was quite lazy, not so much interests and very spoiled....now i believe she s very far from my carachter. In some way i convinced myself that a girl like this can give a thrill similar to pornstars in porn movies was good for me. At the same time i was thinking to quite and less stricking girls as boring and very unattractive...i was interested only to girls known to be naughty or slutty.
i believe is incredible...i had ideal of girl produced only by sex addictions! not based on what i desire in my life or other genuine interest

 

[ilovemyhand]

I hear you.. Well, I don't know what your experience with rebooting is, but after you abstain from PMO for a while your tastes DO start becoming more and more vanilla - that the beauty of this process!

Have you experience anything like that yet?

 

[nannitac]

yes i listen about your sexual taste coming back to vanilla...by analogy i hope also i will get aroused by "vanilla girls", rather than girl looks nlike pornstar.
i hope next time i will see a SW prostitute sexy dresses i will feel indifferent rather than aroused as it happened in the past, of course i dont play with fire so i stay away from that streets!

 

[ilovemyhand]

In my experience, the change in perspective is quite interesting. You must understand I was one of the guys who had PIED - meaning that I couldn't get it hard unless I was watching some pretty hardcore porn. I've gone so far that the large majority of women in the real world were just sexually boring to me.

If I'm being honest with you, I was so fucked up, that chances are that even if I would meet one of my favorite pornstars in real life, and she would want to fuck me like crazy, I probably wouldn't get hard simply because that wouldn't be sexually exciting enough.

What I would secretly want to happen is that all her imperfections are masterfully hidden with the help of camera angles, make up and lighting, and then she would have to do some pretty extreme fetish stuff, and only then I would be aroused enough to go through with it  ???

Well, now, after a significant time of rebooting, normal girls are very arousing and while that is the norm I can't begin to explain how wonderful it feels and how grateful I am that I discovered this process that allowed me to reverse all of the unconscious disservice I have done to myself with porn.

 

[nannitac]

My addiction it is bit different than yours. Actually it started from 20 to 24 only with porn then for 10 years  i moved from porn to real sex with prostitutes, menawhile i was also PMO ing but porn was not my first source of sex, but always i preferred dopamine rush from real promiscous sex.
concerning DE or impotence i got a bit different story:
- i was able to have very good erections with prostitutes, sex satisfied me a lot
- i suffered DE and impotence with girlfriends even if i was attracted, rarely i felt satisfied aniway not arousing as it was when i paid
i believe that i always suffered stress and anxiety with all GF i had, fear of intimacy and to be rejected. All things you ll never experince when you pay for sex

 

[ilovemyhand]

The main point of my previous post was: if I could start feeling immensely fulfilled with vanilla sex with very non-pornstar looking girls, then you probably can also  Good luck!