simplycomplex
Member
Hi, everyone. I posted this in the main forum, but I have decided to start a journal to hopefully monitor things better and keep my rebooting on track.
I have lurked here before, and I have been doing a lot of research on PIED. I just figured I would register on the forum and start interacting with others.
I am a 29-year-old male, and I am pretty sure I am, like many here, suffering from PIED.
My first relationship (with Woman A) that was sexual was great - no problems whatsoever. In fact, we had sex quite frequently. Fast forward some time to another relationship (with Woman B), and things were great, too. There was slight sexual incompatibility, but nothing that I wasn't willing to work through. I actually fell in love with Woman B, but she ended up breaking my heart; I took it horribly. It was right around that time I really started looking to porn for making myself feel better. It got more and more frequent. Sometimes I would PMO 3-4 times in one day. At the very least, it was usually once per day, and this lasted for quite some time. Once I started getting over Woman B, I had sexual interactions with other women, but I started noticing something was different. I didn't seem to have the strongest erections during intercourse, but I didn't seem to worry. The PMO was still on-going at this point, and I was even starting to look at some pretty hardcore stuff. The last time I tried to have sex with a woman, I could maintain an erection to put a condom on; very discouraging.
To me, it didn't make much sense. I didn't feel any different that would suggest something physically wrong. I started doing some digging and discovered issues related to PIED. After reading quite a bit about it, it seemed to make a lot of sense in the context of what I was/am experiencing. I still wonder if there is anything physically wrong, though, like low testosterone. I am considering getting some blood work done.
Not too long ago, I decided to try a reboot. It didn't take long before I relapsed. I PMO'd, and while I did, I had one of the strongest erections I can remember. Not sure if that is/was a good sign. I felt terrible after, though, and I decided to try a reboot again.
I am now on Day 10 of my current reboot. Last night and this afternoon, I was very tempted to relapse. I looked at very soft images and started to masturbate to erection. I didn't orgasm, though. I stopped myself. I don't want to ruin the progress I have made so far, but it's really hard. I think my body is going through some withdrawal. The last two mornings, I woke with MW - the first time was strong and lasted a bit, and the second was kind of weak, but still there. Other than that, it has been the dreaded flatline. MW is very infrequent.
I am currently dating a girl, and we have been physical, but no sex. I have no problem achieving a strong erection during foreplay, but I do fear that I won't be able to maintain it if I were to attempt going for a condom. We are not rushing into sex, though, and she doesn't know about my concerns with PIED; though, she has felt some of the effects of it - my lack of desire, drive, and socializing. But, I do like her, and I am trying to make things work. I may open up to her about things. I am just a little worried because we haven't known each other THAT long.
I am determined to get porn out of my life. I never would have thought it could have this big of an impact, but it obviously does.
I have lurked here before, and I have been doing a lot of research on PIED. I just figured I would register on the forum and start interacting with others.
I am a 29-year-old male, and I am pretty sure I am, like many here, suffering from PIED.
My first relationship (with Woman A) that was sexual was great - no problems whatsoever. In fact, we had sex quite frequently. Fast forward some time to another relationship (with Woman B), and things were great, too. There was slight sexual incompatibility, but nothing that I wasn't willing to work through. I actually fell in love with Woman B, but she ended up breaking my heart; I took it horribly. It was right around that time I really started looking to porn for making myself feel better. It got more and more frequent. Sometimes I would PMO 3-4 times in one day. At the very least, it was usually once per day, and this lasted for quite some time. Once I started getting over Woman B, I had sexual interactions with other women, but I started noticing something was different. I didn't seem to have the strongest erections during intercourse, but I didn't seem to worry. The PMO was still on-going at this point, and I was even starting to look at some pretty hardcore stuff. The last time I tried to have sex with a woman, I could maintain an erection to put a condom on; very discouraging.
To me, it didn't make much sense. I didn't feel any different that would suggest something physically wrong. I started doing some digging and discovered issues related to PIED. After reading quite a bit about it, it seemed to make a lot of sense in the context of what I was/am experiencing. I still wonder if there is anything physically wrong, though, like low testosterone. I am considering getting some blood work done.
Not too long ago, I decided to try a reboot. It didn't take long before I relapsed. I PMO'd, and while I did, I had one of the strongest erections I can remember. Not sure if that is/was a good sign. I felt terrible after, though, and I decided to try a reboot again.
I am now on Day 10 of my current reboot. Last night and this afternoon, I was very tempted to relapse. I looked at very soft images and started to masturbate to erection. I didn't orgasm, though. I stopped myself. I don't want to ruin the progress I have made so far, but it's really hard. I think my body is going through some withdrawal. The last two mornings, I woke with MW - the first time was strong and lasted a bit, and the second was kind of weak, but still there. Other than that, it has been the dreaded flatline. MW is very infrequent.
I am currently dating a girl, and we have been physical, but no sex. I have no problem achieving a strong erection during foreplay, but I do fear that I won't be able to maintain it if I were to attempt going for a condom. We are not rushing into sex, though, and she doesn't know about my concerns with PIED; though, she has felt some of the effects of it - my lack of desire, drive, and socializing. But, I do like her, and I am trying to make things work. I may open up to her about things. I am just a little worried because we haven't known each other THAT long.
I am determined to get porn out of my life. I never would have thought it could have this big of an impact, but it obviously does.
