Seeking Freedom

isaboy15

isaboy15

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Hey there,

    My name is Isaac. I did reboot nation for a while this last year, but for some reason I stopped. Journaling seemed too much of a hassle I guess? I don't know. The long and short is: I'm a bit of a wreck. I relapse all the time even though I'm getting ready to propose to my girlfriend. I made a deal with myself not to propose until I can kick this pig. I will try to exercise half an hour every day and take cold showers, because that has helped me in the past.

    I'm a freshmen in college, and just graduated from high school this last spring. I'm going to OIT to study clinical lab science which basically means I want to work in hospital labs. I currently work in a deli part time to help get me through college. I like comic books, d&d, video games, and I'm deciding to like jogging because that's going to help me beat this addiction.

    As you've probably noticed, I relapsed today. And I'm taking on the hard 90. here we go.

Stay grounded,
Isaac
 
B-RYE

B-RYE

Member
Your most recent relapse doesn't destroy all of the progress you made this year. You're still so young, which is a good thing! Kick this addiction sooner rather than later, and what better motivation to stop than proposing to your girlfriend.

Does your girlfriend know about your PIED?
 
isaboy15

isaboy15

Member
Hey guys. No pmo for the last few days. Feelin a little better. Getting over a hard-core cold, so I haven't exercised for a bit. Starting school this week. The flatline is real. Need your prayers.
 
isaboy15

isaboy15

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Hey all. Havin a good day so far. Still no pmo so that's a blessing. I woke up this morning and was able to mo while thinking only about my girlfriend. That's progress, I hear so booyah. Feeling hopeful, but I refuse to get cocky. Almost over my cold so I should be able to exercise tomorrow. Thanks for your support, guys. Here's to another day in the hard 90.
 
isaboy15

isaboy15

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Wassup rebooters?

Havin a good streak right now, thank God.  feeling pretty good. Had an extra day off from class yesterday because  the entire Willamette valley froze over haha. this morning I got up early and checked my email and stuff. haven't exercised or meditated yet but it's in my plan. actually starting class today so that's gonna be fun, also I have work this afternoon so it's gonna be a full day for me.

Stay frosty,
Isaac
 
isaboy15

isaboy15

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Ouch. Had a relapse. Not fun. I had an arousing dream and then I tried and failed in my groggy arousal. From now on my strategy after arousing dreams is to get up and get a drink, maybe go outside for a spell. Good luck, and God bless.
 
isaboy15

isaboy15

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There goes another streak. Oof. This time I was trying to sleep on an issue that I have with my GF. I was really aroused but I couldn't get off to her and I couldn't get to sleep. I guess next time I'm in this predicament I'll take a cold shower. Thanks, guys. Here we go again.
 
isaboy15

isaboy15

Member
Hey guys. Havin a good day despite the relapse. God's helping me fight it out. Exercised this morning which was incredibly helpful. Doing a seven minute workout that really combats P triggers. Just got out of class and now I'm waiting for my GF to get out. Peace.
Isaac
 
isaboy15

isaboy15

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Hey all. Doin pretty good this morning. Got a fantastic night's sleep cuz I took some pain meds for my back (It aches after work and usually keeps me up). Goin to church with the love of my life today. Excited for that. Planning on knocking this day out with extreme prejudice (with the Lord's help). Rock on.
Isaac
 
isaboy15

isaboy15

Member
Sup rebooters. feeling good today. exercise and a cold shower go a long way. got classes till 6pm today so that's gonna be fun. no pmo sofar. I give God the credit for that. He gives me strength. Here's to antoher day in the hard 90. let's kick this pig. Over and out.

Isaac
 
isaboy15

isaboy15

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Hey nation. Had a successful day. God gave me strength and peace and got me through it. Now I'm waiting for my girlfriend to get off work so I can call her. My exercise And cold shower helped so much. I've also found that reading before bed helps me avoid that pre-sleep arousal that I get sometimes. Thanks for your support, nation. Strength to you, and God bless.
Isaac
 
isaboy15

isaboy15

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Hey nation. Feeling good this morning. Missed my exercise but got my cold shower in. Have to leave early for school. Prayin for a strength today. Peace.
Isaac
 
isaboy15

isaboy15

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Hey guys md to o while reading erotic lit. Heads up. If you're confused, it's porn. Erotica conditions your brain to be aroused by pretend people and situations. It's not healthy. Of course I decided that after I relapsed. Bummer. Heads up. Don't play video games the hour leading up to sleep. It charges you up and makes you want to m. Trying again.
Isaac
 
isaboy15

isaboy15

Member
hey guys doin pretty good today. got my exercise and my cold shower. it was very very cold. getting a lot done today. changed my counter to beat my streak to see if that helps. peace out.
 
B-RYE

B-RYE

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Just wanted to point out that I loved that you set a small attainable goal of beating your longest 5 day streak. Keep it up man! Doing good  8)
 
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