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stillme

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You mentioned something in your first post that was interesting. You stated that even at a very young age - masturbation was sexual for you. You said you could not even remember when it wasn't sexual and there weren't sexual fantasies. Do you have any recollection of sexual abuse? Young children that are sexually abused, especially those that are used for child pornography are often required to do sexual play and fantasy type of activities on camera. Some of theses victims are extremely young - one, two, and three years old even. It might be a good idea to work with a licensed professional to ensure there are not some past traumatic experiences from your very early youth that aren't driving part of this addiction as well.

That would be advice for men, too. If self pleasuring involved sexual fantasy and fetish even before the age of seven - there may be some additional issues as well. Many children repress sexual abuse, especially if the abuser was a loved one like a parent or sibling. Unfortunately, there are a lot of victims of child sexual abuse - with statistics saying as many as 1 in 5 children will be sexually abused before the age of 18. If you honestly cannot remember when it became sexual and not simply children exploring their own body, but you know it was sexual at an extremely young age (i.e. five or earlier) - it might be a good idea to have at least one session with a licensed psychologist that works with victims of abuse. I am not expert, that comment just really jumped out to me.
 

sm

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Hi stillme, thanks for your message.
Yes, I actually have been thinking about it, a lot, but I can't remember any abuse during my childhood. I started to see a psychologist a while ago, and I can't recollect anything like that. Maybe It is because I'm not a great talker and I find very hard to open up with someone, but no story of abuse ever came up. Anyway, that's one of the reasons I went to therapy at first place, because I wanted to find out. There are also some other aspects of my life that make me think something happened, but for now I can honestly recollect nothing.
take care!
have a nice day
 
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