Hi, if you want to know some background info about me you can go here: http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=7795.0
If you are not willing to check that out here is a very brief intro:
I'm 24 and I've never had sex because I don't seem to get aroused by real girls. I've been masturbating daily since I was 5 years old, even masturbating just for the sake of it without actually wanting to masturbate, sometimes I even ejaculate with no pleasure...
I have done damage to my brain apparently, specially since I started this addiction so early on (and so many years ago) when my brain was still developing.. I hope that I still can repair it with a proper no-fap challenge, I think that I still have a chance of having a sexual life and not being virgin and lonely for the rest of my life, specially since the past year for different circumstances I was 10 days with no fap and on the last days I was getting boners just looking at girls, even ugly or older girls... So yeah there is hope of recovery!
So that's it, I'm starting my no-fap challenge here, I won't set a special ammount of days, just as many as possible and I won't ejaculate by myself: the only possible release will be having sex with a real girl. I also will not watch any porn, although that has not been a problem for me, I barely watch porn anyways (see the introductory thread for more details).
This challenge is a matter of life or death for me, I don't want an asexual life, I'd rather die, so I have some motivation there.
I already did day 1 since I haven't fapped since yesterday morning so... here goes the report from day 1:
DAY 1: Woke up with a boner in the morning and fantasizing about women, I thouched myself for 1 minute and then managed to stop it, didn't ejaculate anything. At midday when I was coming back from the gym I stared at a girls ass and got a very light boner after letting my imagination go wild.. but see, that's the problem for me: I can get aroused in my imagination but in real life it just doesn't happen, maybe if I was actually slapping that ass my dick would be dead, but as I imagined it I got a semi-boner.. So this mini-boner doesn't tell me anything yet, let's say everything is normal right now.
If you are not willing to check that out here is a very brief intro:
I'm 24 and I've never had sex because I don't seem to get aroused by real girls. I've been masturbating daily since I was 5 years old, even masturbating just for the sake of it without actually wanting to masturbate, sometimes I even ejaculate with no pleasure...
I have done damage to my brain apparently, specially since I started this addiction so early on (and so many years ago) when my brain was still developing.. I hope that I still can repair it with a proper no-fap challenge, I think that I still have a chance of having a sexual life and not being virgin and lonely for the rest of my life, specially since the past year for different circumstances I was 10 days with no fap and on the last days I was getting boners just looking at girls, even ugly or older girls... So yeah there is hope of recovery!
So that's it, I'm starting my no-fap challenge here, I won't set a special ammount of days, just as many as possible and I won't ejaculate by myself: the only possible release will be having sex with a real girl. I also will not watch any porn, although that has not been a problem for me, I barely watch porn anyways (see the introductory thread for more details).
This challenge is a matter of life or death for me, I don't want an asexual life, I'd rather die, so I have some motivation there.
I already did day 1 since I haven't fapped since yesterday morning so... here goes the report from day 1:
DAY 1: Woke up with a boner in the morning and fantasizing about women, I thouched myself for 1 minute and then managed to stop it, didn't ejaculate anything. At midday when I was coming back from the gym I stared at a girls ass and got a very light boner after letting my imagination go wild.. but see, that's the problem for me: I can get aroused in my imagination but in real life it just doesn't happen, maybe if I was actually slapping that ass my dick would be dead, but as I imagined it I got a semi-boner.. So this mini-boner doesn't tell me anything yet, let's say everything is normal right now.