sugarcanethrowaway
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I apologise for the somewhat contentious title. I just turned 18 years old recently and I've basically had no penile sensitivity my entire life. I don't want to cling onto any false hopes about potential recovery, I just want straight up answers.
Currently, I experience no orgasms, urinary problems, sensitivity on my penis is the same as the back of my hand, basically no libido (I'm serious, I look at a naked hot girl and I won't be aroused), no refractory period, no hypersensitivity that comes after an orgasm, some weird as scar on the head of my penis, a weird hard swelling beneath the head of my penis, and a short foreskin which doesn't cover the head of my penis resulting in no sensitivity on the head of my penis either.
Before anyone asks, I have being to doctors who are stumped. This just really kills my hopes because if doctors can't help me, then who can?
I hate getting close to girls or getting into a relationship because I'm afraid of having to have sex. I know, how fucking ridiculous. I remember when I was a kid that just hit puberty and I really wanted to have sex, like it was basically my one goal. Now, I'm afraid of it. Nothing feels good about sex. I last ages, it becomes boring, I feel nothing and I don't even at least have an orgasm.
Please read on from here to hear my theories on how I caused these problems, just in case my theories turn out to be wrong.
When I was a kid, about 5 years old, I discovered prone masturbation/dry humping, it felt good so I did it a lot. Over time, I stopped doing it - I can't remember why I stopped but I think it might be because it became less pleasureable.
Then when I was about 9, I learned about masturbation from my friends and I tried it out. I couldn't feel any pleasure. My theory here is that maybe I damaged my penis from when I was dry jumping. And because I was a fucked up kid, I became obsessed with it in pursuit of trying to find some sort of pleasure. I think this lead to even more lack of sensitivity today.
Eventually when I hit puberty at 13, I only masturbated for the orgasm and I did that super often. I would power through my refractory periods and hypersentivity. Which lead me to now. I noticed that my orgasms are basically non existent as well as my refractory periods and hypersensitivity. If anything, I am numb after ejaculating. I have ejaculated up to 8 times in a row. I think I've ejaculated up to 12 times in one day at most.
I then tried nofap on and off but didn't count the days. I didn't really trust it or take it seriously because all its effects seemed overblown and it looked like pseudoscience. It didn't really seem to help much either. Nofap also put me in a permanent flatline. My libido went from extremely high (as expected for a teenager) to non existent. I can literally look at extremely hot naked girls and I won't even feel a thing. For the record, I still do try nofap. I'm not even interested in masturbating anymore so I rarely masturbate anyways.
I feel like a freak. I'm so fucked up. I've destroyed my sex life before I even hit 18. I hate myself and the last thing I need is more false hopes. I don't want people telling me baseless "feel-good" lies, I want evidence and truth. What can I do to fix these problems? Where can I go? I've kept telling myself that my orgasms would return, my libido would be high again and my sensitivity would be normal but it's being so long. I'm starting to lose hope.
Thanks for taking time to read this.
Currently, I experience no orgasms, urinary problems, sensitivity on my penis is the same as the back of my hand, basically no libido (I'm serious, I look at a naked hot girl and I won't be aroused), no refractory period, no hypersensitivity that comes after an orgasm, some weird as scar on the head of my penis, a weird hard swelling beneath the head of my penis, and a short foreskin which doesn't cover the head of my penis resulting in no sensitivity on the head of my penis either.
Before anyone asks, I have being to doctors who are stumped. This just really kills my hopes because if doctors can't help me, then who can?
I hate getting close to girls or getting into a relationship because I'm afraid of having to have sex. I know, how fucking ridiculous. I remember when I was a kid that just hit puberty and I really wanted to have sex, like it was basically my one goal. Now, I'm afraid of it. Nothing feels good about sex. I last ages, it becomes boring, I feel nothing and I don't even at least have an orgasm.
Please read on from here to hear my theories on how I caused these problems, just in case my theories turn out to be wrong.
When I was a kid, about 5 years old, I discovered prone masturbation/dry humping, it felt good so I did it a lot. Over time, I stopped doing it - I can't remember why I stopped but I think it might be because it became less pleasureable.
Then when I was about 9, I learned about masturbation from my friends and I tried it out. I couldn't feel any pleasure. My theory here is that maybe I damaged my penis from when I was dry jumping. And because I was a fucked up kid, I became obsessed with it in pursuit of trying to find some sort of pleasure. I think this lead to even more lack of sensitivity today.
Eventually when I hit puberty at 13, I only masturbated for the orgasm and I did that super often. I would power through my refractory periods and hypersentivity. Which lead me to now. I noticed that my orgasms are basically non existent as well as my refractory periods and hypersensitivity. If anything, I am numb after ejaculating. I have ejaculated up to 8 times in a row. I think I've ejaculated up to 12 times in one day at most.
I then tried nofap on and off but didn't count the days. I didn't really trust it or take it seriously because all its effects seemed overblown and it looked like pseudoscience. It didn't really seem to help much either. Nofap also put me in a permanent flatline. My libido went from extremely high (as expected for a teenager) to non existent. I can literally look at extremely hot naked girls and I won't even feel a thing. For the record, I still do try nofap. I'm not even interested in masturbating anymore so I rarely masturbate anyways.
I feel like a freak. I'm so fucked up. I've destroyed my sex life before I even hit 18. I hate myself and the last thing I need is more false hopes. I don't want people telling me baseless "feel-good" lies, I want evidence and truth. What can I do to fix these problems? Where can I go? I've kept telling myself that my orgasms would return, my libido would be high again and my sensitivity would be normal but it's being so long. I'm starting to lose hope.
Thanks for taking time to read this.