wisecarevice
Member
Let me first say that my wife and I have stopped having sex while I heal. The last time we did it was awful for me as I came real fast, I mean 2 thrust and I orgasmed. I came like a race horse as I had stopped masterbaiting and haven't watched porn in a month. Thats when I knew I was in this for the long haul. I needed more time to get my brain right. Even now I can't get fully erect. My wife was at the table studying for exams and doing homework. She asked me to massage her legs which I did. Normally when I was pmoing I would just rub her legs and go about my day. This time was different. Now I haven't really been sexually attracted to my wife for at least 2 years. She is beautiful, but as I have been addicted to porn for God only knows how long, she wasn't what my brain wanted so to speak. As I was rubbing her legs she closed her eyes and I stared at her legs. I looked at the small hairs and dimples on her knees. I was intoxicated by the feel of her skin. I haven't felt that way since we were dating. She jumped onto the bed and decided to nap for 20 minutes. I kept messaging her legs. Then I moved to her back. Again I was getting the hots for my wife. MY WIFE. After 20 minutes I had inched down to the top of her buttocks. Guys I don't stare at my wife's butt anymore. I started getting hard and I could sense she wanted to make love. It took all my strength and a healthy dose of reality (As in fear of failing) to get up and help her off the bed. Rebooting while married is hard but my God when this is over I will have a release of a lifetime. The point is you have to take control of your brain and your body. Life is hard unfortunately our penis's are not. So grab life by the horns and go for broke.