steadyrock
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Sometimes i just want to give up and kill myself...i already tried several times but failed. I dont have a girlfriend and never had one. I never had a sexual interaction. I Never cuddled somebody, never... interactions with women were very few because i am afraid of them, i was bullied by them and molested in my childhood and teen years. I dont know how to change my life anymore because i know i have alot of work to do if i want to have a nurturing social life...but i am completly alone in this and i am 22 years old i am tired of failing and trying again. I dropped out of university, i wasnt able to handle it. And now i am completly alone in this, i literally have nobody, i have no friends in my homeland, i am completly left behind by the people that i wanted to be with. I dont really know if one day i am really going to recover from this and to live my youth to its fullest, time is running out! this scares me as fuck. My brain only learned shit, it had not one single opportunity to learn the natural thing in this life... So i am here asking for help for the first time, does anyone want to be my accountability partner? Can you leave some helpful advice? I dont want to waste the rest that is left of my youth in this shit life anymore.