mylaststand
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Hi guys,
I think it's being for me 60 or 65 days aprox without PM...
I would say I'm managing the craving of watching P and M, more or less ok. I had strong cravings a couple of days ago, but I managed to resist to watch or do anything.
The thing is, I have a really big depression it's hitting me really hard. I started going out with some girl, which I like alot and I'm probably inlove, we did have sex a few times and it didn't go too bad, my main problem is that we are in distance relationship and for me it's a big emotional stress, she is also very attractive and has many other guys in her phone fb, etc... We are not long together, just 2 months. I'm not really sure what to do. I don't know if I should finish this relationship and go hardmode or try to continue with it. I feel very sad she not being near and also regardless I told her I have a bit of ED, I don't know if hardmode would do better for me. If I leave her, I'm very week emotionally I would probably feel very sad, maybe relapse or even worst kill myself. I'm having lots of suicidal thoughts lately Iife its loosing the meaning because I can't really enjoy a relationship and also depression insomnia an no morning wood for I don't know how long. Anyway, I'm just expressing a bit.
I think it's being for me 60 or 65 days aprox without PM...
I would say I'm managing the craving of watching P and M, more or less ok. I had strong cravings a couple of days ago, but I managed to resist to watch or do anything.
The thing is, I have a really big depression it's hitting me really hard. I started going out with some girl, which I like alot and I'm probably inlove, we did have sex a few times and it didn't go too bad, my main problem is that we are in distance relationship and for me it's a big emotional stress, she is also very attractive and has many other guys in her phone fb, etc... We are not long together, just 2 months. I'm not really sure what to do. I don't know if I should finish this relationship and go hardmode or try to continue with it. I feel very sad she not being near and also regardless I told her I have a bit of ED, I don't know if hardmode would do better for me. If I leave her, I'm very week emotionally I would probably feel very sad, maybe relapse or even worst kill myself. I'm having lots of suicidal thoughts lately Iife its loosing the meaning because I can't really enjoy a relationship and also depression insomnia an no morning wood for I don't know how long. Anyway, I'm just expressing a bit.