Of all the things to be addicted to...

[colby]

Hello!! I'm 24 years old and recently I came to the conclusion that I was addicted to internet porn. I'm recently sexually active and I was noticing that I wasn't cumming like everybody else. Looking it up I found that I had delayed ejaculation, so I decided to withdrawal. I'm a little different int hat my favorite kinds of porn is hentai, porn fiction, and porn games as well. Sometimes I would jack it 2 to 3 times a day, if I was really bad maybe more. So right now I'd been clean for about 1 week but I slipped tonight. I didn't finish watching internet porn but I watched it for a good while before finishing myself off.

I'm kinda pissed at myself because I wanted to start the month off clean but guess I will have restart the clock now.

Oh well, I guess it could be worse. I could be addicted to heroine or something.

 

[fnatk]

Hey there colby, first off I think we all have different types of porn we ended up getting hooked on, I watched pretty much everything (Only pictures with hentai though) but I would read lots of porn fiction too. Whatever the type is, it doesn't really matter as jacking it 2-3 times a day or more is clearly not healthy, especially when you do it to porn. You've recognized that so you've taken the first step, that's awesome!

Having one relapse isn't the end of the world, I had a really bad one myself, binging on porn for several months and just forgetting all about my addiction. So you're resetting the clock, good to hear. Have you set yourself any goals for your reboot? Trying 90 days of no PMO? 120 days?

Learning more about your addiction as well is going to help you to motivate yourself, the more you know how harmful this is to yourself the more you'll want to quit. Read a few success stories or check out Gabe's videos on Youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I0dDLWGMhUo this one helped me the most

 

[colby]

Hey there colby, first off I think we all have different types of porn we ended up getting hooked on, I watched pretty much everything (Only pictures with hentai though) but I would read lots of porn fiction too. Whatever the type is, it doesn't really matter as jacking it 2-3 times a day or more is clearly not healthy, especially when you do it to porn. You've recognized that so you've taken the first step, that's awesome!

Having one relapse isn't the end of the world, I had a really bad one myself, binging on porn for several months and just forgetting all about my addiction. So you're resetting the clock, good to hear. Have you set yourself any goals for your reboot? Trying 90 days of no PMO? 120 days?

Learning more about your addiction as well is going to help you to motivate yourself, the more you know how harmful this is to yourself the more you'll want to quit. Read a few success stories or check out Gabe's videos on Youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I0dDLWGMhUo this one helped me the most

Well this is going to sound sad but I have issues Getting past 2 weeks, so I want to make it to week three and if I can do that, I want to make it to 2 months, just in time for a comic con.

 

[fnatk]

There's nothing sad about it, its a heck of a struggle to kick this habit! Just remember that every day you don't PMO is progress! If you relapse well, that's a setback. But next time you'll go longer! And obviously try avoiding binging... you can do this!

 

[DonnyD]

I've also had relatively soft fetishes (porn games, g/g) but it really doesn't change anything. I also realized that when I get horny for porn during no-fap, the urges will be for the softest things (erotic comic books for example) which feel like less of a transgression maybe. But it's a trick though of course. During my relapse I started with the soft stuff and quickly binged into more regular porn.

One small relapse IMO is not really such a big deal and you can even use it positively as experience. Because it just shows how it isn't that great and how your brain is "tricking" you into thinking that it is greater and more enjoyable than it actually is as it is experiencing some sort of withdrawal. This is what happened to me when I relapsed after 12 days last time. Also, if you start no fap quickly afterwards without going on long porn binges, you'll still be making progress and will not completely start from scratch again.

 

[colby]

Thanks for the support guys, I really appreciate it. I jerked off tonight without porn. Is that a good or bad thing?

 

[Lincoln]

Thanks for the support guys, I really appreciate it. I jerked off tonight without porn. Is that a good or bad thing?

Gary Wilson's video series at yourbrainonporn.com explore what's going on in the brain and how much of the addiction cycle can be driven by shame and basically beating ourselves up - so I wouldn't think about it in terms of bad or good. It's a worthwhile series if you haven't checked it out already.

I think what may be more useful is to know how you respond to various triggers, including how you respond in the next few days after m.  It may not be a problem for you, but I know from my own experiences that it is for me. I also have a hard time passing the two week mark and the trouble I have is when sexual urges start to appear again. In the past when I've gone past two weeks it's because I refrained from m.

 

[colby]

Hows everyone doing, I masturbated recently because I sent a video to woman that I was interested in and that sat me back a little bit and pissed me off greatly. So I its back to 0 for me. and today is being really hard, I'm craving a fix and I'm doing everything I can to ignore it.

 

[colby]

So I have good news and bad news. I looked at porn today, nothing too extreme, but I did and masturbated. On the plus side though, yesterday I got a blowjob and I came rather quickly in comparison to what I'm used to. So, it seems like things are somewhat on the up and up, just got to keep it up!!

Back to Day 0.

 

[IRoslan]

Well, we may not into the same kind of genre, but I know it's tough, man. This is like my 8th year trying to stop for good. You're gonna go crazy when your craving at its peak. I mean, like, you can't do anything when it strikes you.

What I thought was beneficial for me was reading through the forums in this website that talks about successful stories and how the managed to completely wipeout their addiction. Really inspired me. Dunno if it'll work for you. But you just gotta pushing. We're trying to make a major change in life, man. It's gonna be a bumpy ride, but hang in there. We're here to keep you moving forward, don't we?

 

[colby]

Yeah man, deffinitely and I really support that all of you guys are giving me and wish you the same success as well!!

 

[colby]

Day 3, going pretty good, only jerked off once and it was without the use of outside stimulus, so going good to so far.

 

[fugu]

Day 3, going pretty good, only jerked off once and it was without the use of outside stimulus, so going good to so far.

Keep it going man! The more of a "roll" that you get into, the better off you are!

 

[colby]

So I relapsed today. I learned that I generally want to masturbate when I'm stressed, or bored. This wasn't any of those, I was just super horny for some reason today and couldn't control myself. Its hard to work towards this goal when I'm single and don't have a physical motivation to continue. I have a mental one and I don't suffer from any confidence loss or anything. But when your single and not getting laid, its just so easy to fall into a masturbatory habit.

 

[heroack]

I read some comments from u guys and i see that not everyone here its successful at least yet. I hear people still relapsing even though they got this website and support. When i joined i thought it was gonna be the end of it but i see that even with all this its still hard to over come. Specially when i come to a week. I havent gotten there yet but i know i will. I already have 24 hours but after today ill count my first day clean. I have an addictive personality , i was adictive to hardcore drugs too. I manage to put that under control but yhe porn addiction not yet.

Just like when i was addictive to heroin and crack cocaine i stared having having sex dreams when i stopped masturbation and porn. That usually set me back too. I also have different fetishes so when i get bored of one ill jump to another. I hope i can make 10 days from now and hopefully keep going untill i rewire or reboot.