I started masturbating at age 14 or so, then I started watching soft core porn and eventually looking at porn on the internet when we got dial up internet. I couldn't really get off with girls when I would get a hand job or blow job when I was younger. I would have to go home and masturbate. My first experience with sex I lost the erection after penetration, freaked out and got borderline depressed, which also occurred with subsequent attempts. I started avoiding sex and masturbated regularly to porn. As it stands today, I don't get aroused by kissing or even heavy making out. I can get hard to a blow job but if I don't have constant stimulation I lose the erection. I also have severe anxiety/OCD symptoms. I'm at 47 days rebooting no porn, but I've MO'd several times, which always makes me feel depressed. Do I have any chance of recovering? I can't even remember what its like to be truly aroused anymore. It has always felt really natural for me to chase after girls, but when I'm there in the moment I don't really respond. Help please.... I do still wake up with morning erections pretty regularly, but when I'm fully awake I start to get anxiety and worry about my erection and it goes down pretty quickly. Is there any hope for me?