Today was absolutely scary.
I think now that I've put my brain in THAT mindset that basically says "fuck porn, you must be a fool if you think when you send me withdrawals, I'll give in" and the past 7 days I've received the worst withdrawals of my life compared to when I went 20 days without porn and that was piss easy.
Today I was at work and we we're in a meeting about one of our projects, I was thinking about one of the architects I was working with, how I needed to email him for some more information and BAM it's like someone had slapped me so hard in the face and all I could think about was some hardcore porn, I was falling asleep in the meeting and it was literally like a train had hit me straight on, the image came into my head and I literally stood up straight and I had to walk out, that image gave me the most rock hard on I've ever had in my mind life and every bone in my body was screaming go and masturbate, I didn't give in. So much happier now I didn't.
My brain is throwing disgusting wet dreams at me too, lots of porn thoughts whilst I'm asleep and I woke up with the massive urge to masturbate this morning, I got out of bed and looked at myself in the mirror and laughed and said "if that's the best you've got Brain, then I can beat this with my eyes closed"
I am so so determined to not give in, give in I will not.
I think now that I've put my brain in THAT mindset that basically says "fuck porn, you must be a fool if you think when you send me withdrawals, I'll give in" and the past 7 days I've received the worst withdrawals of my life compared to when I went 20 days without porn and that was piss easy.
Today I was at work and we we're in a meeting about one of our projects, I was thinking about one of the architects I was working with, how I needed to email him for some more information and BAM it's like someone had slapped me so hard in the face and all I could think about was some hardcore porn, I was falling asleep in the meeting and it was literally like a train had hit me straight on, the image came into my head and I literally stood up straight and I had to walk out, that image gave me the most rock hard on I've ever had in my mind life and every bone in my body was screaming go and masturbate, I didn't give in. So much happier now I didn't.
My brain is throwing disgusting wet dreams at me too, lots of porn thoughts whilst I'm asleep and I woke up with the massive urge to masturbate this morning, I got out of bed and looked at myself in the mirror and laughed and said "if that's the best you've got Brain, then I can beat this with my eyes closed"
I am so so determined to not give in, give in I will not.
