Reboot Journal - 31yo married w/son

[rebootrapp]

Holy crap, it?s been a month! I had no idea. Time has been flying. I?ve been taking on more responsibility at work, and have been working a little longer hours. It?s been a great experience so far.

Things at home are mostly very good. My wife is very stressed lately about having lost both of her doctors that took good care of her, and now we have to work with new people to hopefully continue her on the same treatment regime she was on, which has been working very well for over 2 years now. Unfortunately, with this opioid public scare craze, we?re worried that the new doctor won?t have the balls to prescribe her these patches she?s had. So I?ve been doing my best to forgive her for being a little short with me sometimes, not often, but a couple times. I can?t wait for this to be over though so she?s not in such a state of anxiety all the time.

Anyway, reboot-wise, things are good. I?ve had a couple shortfalls on ogling, but that was a couple weeks ago I think, and have been refocused since then.

Hope you all are well.

 

[rebootrapp]

My grandma has been staying with us for the last 4 days or so and just went back to my moms today. Had a ton of fun with her as always, still sharp as a rack upstairs, just a little slower to move around than she used to be.

Reboot wise I feel great, ogling has been going well so far into the warm weather.

The toughest thing right now is that out sex life has been more irregular than I?d like, and while I?m not getting triggered to go back to porn at all, it?s just that frustration of wanting that physical intimacy and not getting it as regularly. Doesn?t help that I almost never get more than 5 hours of sleep a night, so I?m always tired as hell and fall asleep as soon as I hit the pillow.

 

[misc person 86]

Glad you're still smashing this! So, do you class this ogling as detrimental to your recovery? If I catch myself doing this I think of it as positive because my libido is returning. Sex being irregular and frustrating you, that's a 'good' sign for your recovery too right? Shows you're ready and wanting that physical and emotional connection. I think what I'm asking is, are you recovered from porn induced issues and just working on improving your relationship now?

 

[rebootrapp]

Hey man, I suppose that depends on where you are in your recovery. If you?re still in flatline, I can see how any sign that you?re still a functional sexual being could be taken as a positive.

But I?m two and a half years into this thing, I know that I?m fine physically at this point. I?m more trying to be true to my wife, that?s all.

I don?t consider it as a relapse issue or anything like that. Just more of a ?don?t be a dirtbag? thing.

Thanks for posting man. I haven?t been on here in a while.