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[klarson27]

I've been away for awhile..

I've been fortunate enough to stay away from porn and haven't felt threatened.

I'm curious how porn has impacted my sexual preferences still.. I can recall having bisexual throughts when I was younger (I'm 40 now and I'm talking about age 11ish to 15... About the ages that I was exposed to VHS porn at my grandparents house (I'm not saying one caused the other)

Since being free from porn I've had a tenancy to think about  (I'm married with a family BTW) having a casual NSA relationship with another man.  I'm wondering if I may really be bisexual or if my sexual preferences have been morphed by 25-29 years of porn usage.

Other than that confusion I'm doing pretty well!

 

[Numez]

if you are confused, it is due to porn addiction.

you are naturally homo, bi or hetero but if you modify your brain with porn use, the difference between what you are and what arouses you (and why) can get blurry. you are also 40, it would be funny to discover that you are bisexual at that age, especially after decades of porn use.

25-30 years is hell of a long time. im 24, you were PMOing more than i am alive. your current streak is EXCELLENT and my guess is that it will take you around 2 years to fully recover. stay on track.

 

[lyon03]

Congratulations on staying away from porn brother! I agree with Numez, only time will tell. I am a gay man, now divorced from the mother of my three children, and I can confirm that my true sexuality (gay) was re-confirmed the longer I went without pornography. And yet near the end of my porn addiction, I could only get stimulated by straight sex videos. That's f*cked up. Whereas my porn habits have always been homosexual and I've been attracted to men since age 5. So I'm living proof that we're born gay and yet can be so deeply addicted that only the new or novel experience of watching straight porn could get me off. I also agree with Numez that we're born straight, bi, or gay. But reading between the lines, I think you're asking yourself a different question. And that question is, "Am I gay?" As a father of three that was married, I can share my own journey. My preference has always been for men and yet I married a woman to conform rather than come out. My porn habits, starting with magazines, then VHS videos, and finally the internet, have ALWAYS been gay. This eventually led to gay hook up apps, anonymous sex, and now (thankfully) a steady boyfriend. So what's my point? Only you can determine your sexual orientation. If like me you've fantasized about men since a young age, had a gay sexual experience here and there, your porn preference was strictly gay, and despite being married are still doing the Craigslist, Grindr, Tinder seeking, there is a good chance you have a same sex attraction. Regardless of what happens, I'd urge you to be honest with yourself, and honest with your wife. Good luck my friend.