Not watching porn but no progress

[mylaststand]

I lost track of last time I watched porn, I think it was November 2015(4 months ago). Very sporadically I have cravings but so far I'm handling it well(knock on wood).

Probably it's early to say that I am porn free, but I'm just wondering when I will start to see some progress in my libido and also morning wood. I did not fap also for 4 months, but I did orgasm with women multiple times. I am not experiencing significant progress and also, I do have, a huge depression with thoughts of killing my self in occasions.
I have decided to go hardmode for 180 days to see if this speeds up recovery(today it's day 11).

I don't know what is going on, but I think I'm flatlining very long time already.

Anybody going through flatline, depression or similar? Any advice how to carry on, this is extremely difficult.
I am not afraid of relapse as I am afraid of giving up and the depression take over myself.

 

[Numez]

dont fight depression, let it take over yourself. reboot is not supposed to be happy process, depression and all sorts of shit can happen so just let it. this is very true especially if you just quit porn and dont try to pursue your goals or change your lifestyle somehow, try new things etc. 4 months is a lot but you may need another 4 months when it comes to better recovery.

4 months is enough for you to allow yourself O with women, once in a week or two. no PMO and no MO is enough of a hardmode, spending time with real women can be beneficial. good lucky

 

[mylaststand]

I recently broke up with my last relationship, so I thought that maybe it's a good chance for trying the hardmode. While in the relationship, I found that I have lots of emotional stress and anxiety, I can't really manage the relationship and be happy, just because of my libido and ed issues. So I decided that I will end it and once I'm recovered I will find someone. Also it is true that I don't want the other person to suffer because of me if I'm too sad or I feel suicidal etc... Fuck it II went into this shit on my own and on my own i will get out of it. So I will follow your advice, after 4 months if I recover the libido and the morning wood I will try to O with woman once in a while or maybe I will do another 4 months. Hopefully all goes well. Thanks for the support. Pozdrav

 

[lookingforafix]

I just did the same as you.

I broke up with my gf as I believe I was stunting my progress with orgasms (with viagra)

so I'm trying to go as long as possible -6 months or as long as it takes without any orgasms

good luck to you