joe_ireland
Member
I have struggled with porn since I was a teenager. I previously managed give up porn for just under 4 months at the end of 2014. Then I gave in. I was on this site for a while in 2015 and struggling with temptation. I eventually got rid of my computer and gave up porn for 3 months, after which I gave in again. I would go for periods without looking at porn and then give in under stress. I need a computer for my work; so I decided that I need to make a fresh start and commitment. So here I am again.
I am a thirty year old man who has recently started training to be a Catholic priest. That means that romantic relationships with women is no longer an option for me. I guess in one way this makes staying away from porn more difficult, but it also makes the task perhaps more urgent: if I cant stay away from porn then my life as a celibate man is a lie. I don't usually like sharing details of my spiritual life but I can only say that it is because of the experience of God's merciful love that I am here; the desire to know Christ and to know other people as they truly are, and not as I objectify them in my mind. I certainly cannot do this without God's help, although it will take a lot of work on my part. I had a strong religious experience this Holy Thursday and since then I have recommitted myself to stay off porn.
I know that so often in the past I became complacent after giving up porn for a period of time. I believed I had finally arrived. Pride always comes before a fall. I know that I can probably never hope to be complacent about the temptation of pornography; it will always be somewhat of a temptation for me.
However in the periods of time that I have been free of it I have felt more alive, happier, freer, less withdrawn. The call to chastity, to see and love other men and women as they truly are, is a lifelong task but it is one that will allow us to grow and become the men we are called to be; to be fully alive.
I have prayed for the people on this site and will continue to pray for all of you. Good luck to you all.
I am a thirty year old man who has recently started training to be a Catholic priest. That means that romantic relationships with women is no longer an option for me. I guess in one way this makes staying away from porn more difficult, but it also makes the task perhaps more urgent: if I cant stay away from porn then my life as a celibate man is a lie. I don't usually like sharing details of my spiritual life but I can only say that it is because of the experience of God's merciful love that I am here; the desire to know Christ and to know other people as they truly are, and not as I objectify them in my mind. I certainly cannot do this without God's help, although it will take a lot of work on my part. I had a strong religious experience this Holy Thursday and since then I have recommitted myself to stay off porn.
I know that so often in the past I became complacent after giving up porn for a period of time. I believed I had finally arrived. Pride always comes before a fall. I know that I can probably never hope to be complacent about the temptation of pornography; it will always be somewhat of a temptation for me.
However in the periods of time that I have been free of it I have felt more alive, happier, freer, less withdrawn. The call to chastity, to see and love other men and women as they truly are, is a lifelong task but it is one that will allow us to grow and become the men we are called to be; to be fully alive.
I have prayed for the people on this site and will continue to pray for all of you. Good luck to you all.