Hard time with rebooting (day 25)

[Slaym87]

Hi rebooters,

I'm a new member in the reboot Nation and I must say this is a very cool and useful forum. It's very encouraging to see there is so many dudes trying to overcome this shitty addiction to porn, just like me.

To begin, I'd like to introduce myself: My name is Slim, 28 years old and I live in Stuttgart, south Germany. I'm an engineering consultant and I have to deal with many clients in the engineering area. So focus and self confidence are here the keywords. But I am living in a hell because since I reboot (today is day 25) I don't feel I am confident at all, and I have concentration problems. To summarize: I never felt so shit in my whole life (and believe me, I'm not overreacting).

At this very moment I am at work and I just can't focus, plus yesterday I did sleep very bad. Since I stop watching porn and masturbation I dream again (sexual dreams too!). Is that a good sign? But it's just fascinating because it just confirms the fact that porn addiction doens't distinguish from other kinds of addictions (drugs etc.). I just hope the good results of the reboot will soon put in an appearance, because I really don't feel confident at all at work, and I think that some colleague noticed that many times, because sometimes I even avoid socializing.
But f**k that s**t I will continue the reboot because I am convinced that It will be worse before it starts to be better.

What do you think? I will be glad to have some comments/experience.
Regards,
Slim

 

[reboutsoup]

hi Slim,


I also noticed the coming back of dreams but did not experienced any confidence lost.
I therefore got more trouble to stay in place and starting to sleep less.

On my side I did not stop masturbation, just porn and substitute.

Keep it up!

 

[jasperv21]

Hi rebooters,

I'm a new member in the reboot Nation and I must say this is a very cool and useful forum. It's very encouraging to see there is so many dudes trying to overcome this shitty addiction to porn, just like me.

To begin, I'd like to introduce myself: My name is Slim, 28 years old and I live in Stuttgart, south Germany. I'm an engineering consultant and I have to deal with many clients in the engineering area. So focus and self confidence are here the keywords. But I am living in a hell because since I reboot (today is day 25) I don't feel I am confident at all, and I have concentration problems. To summarize: I never felt so shit in my whole life (and believe me, I'm not overreacting).

At this very moment I am at work and I just can't focus, plus yesterday I did sleep very bad. Since I stop watching porn and masturbation I dream again (sexual dreams too!). Is that a good sign? But it's just fascinating because it just confirms the fact that porn addiction doens't distinguish from other kinds of addictions (drugs etc.). I just hope the good results of the reboot will soon put in an appearance, because I really don't feel confident at all at work, and I think that some colleague noticed that many times, because sometimes I even avoid socializing.
But f**k that s**t I will continue the reboot because I am convinced that It will be worse before it starts to be better.

What do you think? I will be glad to have some comments/experience.
Regards,
Slim

Hi Slim,

Sounds you're going through a tough time!
But don't give in!
All these bad things you are going through now are the very reason you have to keep on fighting. It shows how the PMO addiction has fucked up your brain.

I've been going through some tough times myself as well..  Sad, negative feelings of emptiness, loneliness, pointlessness. It makes the reboot so tough, these negative feelings. But don't forget that the very cause of these negative feelings is the PMO addiction.

It can take weeks, or even months of fighting, but there is always light at the end of the tunnel.. 

So don't give in!

 

[Slaym87]

Thx guys for your answers, really appreciate it. I dont now, why am I suffering so much. I even cannot think clearly! but now, I almost reached 30 days )) and I am kinda proud. will let u know, when I feel better!

peace

 

[Slaym87]

Hi everyone, today I woke up with a huge desire to M and I almost relapse. I was lying on my bed watching some videos on youtube
and then I start to watch other videos that are NSFW. When I felt that these are really NSFW I stop and woke up and put my tablet away. I think I have to stop watching random videos on youtube, because you can get lost very fast hehe.
Even to have my tablet near my bed is a bad habit, I think. What do you guys think? Tomorrow will be for me one month without M, P, O and PMO.
My goal is really 90 days!

Peace Slim

 

[zaraki888]

Hello Slaym87,

Welcome to rebootnation! Great you did the first step to heal yourself! And look you managed to stay away on your first try, nice.

I often think about women when I stay in bed, not getting up and I masturbate because the feeling rises at that moment. So I wouldn't stay in bed if I were you. Just get up when you wake up as soon as possible. Make sure to sleep enough so you have enough energy to go through the day.
There is a study which confirms people who get up early are more happy than people who stay in bed longer. I never keep my phone or notebook in my bedroom because I cannot sleep with these devices, which emits EMF.

Thanks for your advice on my journal! I will try it out