19 - the no fap journey

snk

Member
Hi there!

I'm a 19 years old brazilian who discovered porn by the age of 8.

Since I saw that, I've got quickly very attracted to all those stuff and started watching it everyday.

For more than 10 years, I've watched P almost everyday and, sometimes, even 2 or 3 times a day.

Even though I'm not a handsome guy, I can still date some girls (yeah, you don't have to be pretty to do that). However, I feel that P has ruined 2 of my relationships and it's going to ruin another one if I don't stop.

Also, I'm coming to a stage on which I don't know myself anymore.

I don't know when my emotions are real or not. I very often regret things that I say (specially to girls and specially when it's about sex).

I feel that P also disrupts my academic performance, lower my productivity and puts my self-esteem down.

By all that, it's time to stop now.

I've already tried this before, but I'm going to take it more seriously now, specially because now I have some support from a girl that I like.

If you know any girl that you like and that likes you back, maybe you should let her know about the problem with P. I found out that explaining this to a girl that you like can be really helpful.

I'm almost 2 days without even thinking about that and I know if I even get close to relapse again, I can count on her to give me some support, so I'm pretty confident that this time it's going to be different.

I'll be writing here everyday and I'll also try to post something which is not related to P (but could be interesting if you need some motivation) everyday.

And today's off topic content is....................

This very motivational video!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6P2nPI6CTlc



 

snk

Member
Day three.

I made a little mistake today and went to see girls' pics on Facebook. That triggered me and got me to an urge, but I handled that.

I guess I can still say I'm clean. However, I realized I need to meditate and study more about P addiction.

I've found this video about urges.

I'd like to have more channels about P addiction to watch, let me know if you have any recomendantion.
 

snk

Member
Day five (didn't have time to post here yesterday)

today was a tough day.
I PM'd but didn't O.

Have to stop this otherwise all my progress will be lost.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fJ9rUzIMcZQ
 
Top