UselessMeat
Active Member
I am extremely depressed today. I am truly scared that my ED will not be cured. I am confident that if it is PIED I will eventually get better, but I am not 100% sure it is PIED. I have spent all day on this forum and really have no motivation to do anything...and I really do need to be doing my school work but I just don't fucking care anymore; All I've been doing today is sitting on the internet reading about all different types of ED trying to find that magic article that makes me feel better like I will be cured and don't physical problem. I am truly worried that I may have some sort of physiological ED. Reading about things like diabetes or kidney disease can cause ED really scares me. But why would I have diabetes or kidney disease.. I'm only 25 years old and I've had that for my entire life as long as I can remember. I also went to the doctor several years ago and they did a urine test and they said everything was normal. It's really fucking annoying reading "but ED is treatable" from these goddamn websites that talk about it. Yeah.. "treatable" with those fucking pills that I will never take. A 25 year old shouldn't need to take those pills to get his cock to work. The thought of never being able to have sex with my girlfriend/wife in my life is so depressing. I don't want to call my girlfriend right now and tell her how depressed I am about this shit. I seriously don't want to bother her with this shit right now.
I feel like my life would be perfect right now if it weren't for this goddamn ED. It's amazing how everything can be great except for one thing.. namely your cock not working.. and that making your entire life just so fucking depressing.
Fuck fuck fuck what did I do to deserve this? If I deserve it because I stroked my cock too much watching porn I can accept that. I just did as every other young boy did but I get punished for it. I can accept being punished for that even though my porn habits were not even that extreme as long as I get better. If I never recover then fuck my life. fuck fuck fuck. Why am I here writing this random shit that nobody wants to read on a forum? I guess it's probably because I can't talk about this to anyone and it's really fucking scaring me. God damnit fuck my life.
Maybe I'll make it through today and see tomorrow and maybe my cock will work better. Fuck
I feel like my life would be perfect right now if it weren't for this goddamn ED. It's amazing how everything can be great except for one thing.. namely your cock not working.. and that making your entire life just so fucking depressing.
Fuck fuck fuck what did I do to deserve this? If I deserve it because I stroked my cock too much watching porn I can accept that. I just did as every other young boy did but I get punished for it. I can accept being punished for that even though my porn habits were not even that extreme as long as I get better. If I never recover then fuck my life. fuck fuck fuck. Why am I here writing this random shit that nobody wants to read on a forum? I guess it's probably because I can't talk about this to anyone and it's really fucking scaring me. God damnit fuck my life.
Maybe I'll make it through today and see tomorrow and maybe my cock will work better. Fuck