Thanks hope for your kind words. Yes I'm sure there's a lot of us with similar stories. 40 years is a long time but I thank God that I'm making progress and hopefully the last part of my life will be an adventure in learning who I am. I'm glad to hear that people are reading my posts and getting inspiration from them. I'm at the point now where I want to help as many people overcome this addiction that I can. I know there are many ways to beat this habit and I am just telling what worked for me and I hope it helps others make progress.