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j0int92
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A shame but dread not, that was another amazing streak under the belt man, good fucking job! What led to the edgeing? That's where you should look in order to prevent it happening another time!
heroin/porn addict with pied
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Adicktive_Mentality
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Ya the edging was maybe attributed to stress and the fact that I got a new phone with a big screen and was justifying scouring through instagram to see how " everything looked", I now am unfollowed to the page that was giving me so many provocative pictures and triggering simmilar suggestions. I have been struggling as of late alot with this girl that I really like, it dosn't seem to be going as I'd like and I just relaped again after only 7 days. 
I need to sort some of this stuff out, it just feels like my life is a mess at the moment.
I need to sort some of this stuff out, it just feels like my life is a mess at the moment.
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j0int92
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Seems like it's going pretty good about now? Awesome to see! Keep it up <3
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j0int92
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Please tell me you didn't just give up but are actually on 99 days?! That would be insane, but I suppose you would have written about this achievement and given an update if it was the case... I really hope so, though! Hope you're good otherwise <3
Adicktive_Mentality
Member
Hey everyone. I haven't been on the forum for about a year. I am returning with my tail between my legs unfortunately quite literally. I relapsed on both heroin and porn since my last post.I got clean from heroin and am now 9 months clean from that.
I also relapsed on porn and was going at it pretty hard as I seem to do. I am in the same situation I was when I first came to these boards a couple years ago. Brought a really cool, beautiful, sweet girl back to my room and couldn't get it up. I fingered her and ate her out. She gave me a blowjob for at least 15 minutes and I still couldn't get past a half chub.
I'm also having a lot of joint pain so I haven't been going to the gym like I used to. I was just diagnosed with osteoarthritis in my knees and I'm only 25.... The doctors referring me to a specialist..... I'm just feeling really down. You guys really brought me back last time and all I could think when I was trying to have sex was I should have stayed with the reboot nation! So here I am once again....
I also relapsed on porn and was going at it pretty hard as I seem to do. I am in the same situation I was when I first came to these boards a couple years ago. Brought a really cool, beautiful, sweet girl back to my room and couldn't get it up. I fingered her and ate her out. She gave me a blowjob for at least 15 minutes and I still couldn't get past a half chub.
I'm also having a lot of joint pain so I haven't been going to the gym like I used to. I was just diagnosed with osteoarthritis in my knees and I'm only 25.... The doctors referring me to a specialist..... I'm just feeling really down. You guys really brought me back last time and all I could think when I was trying to have sex was I should have stayed with the reboot nation! So here I am once again....
Adicktive_Mentality
Member
Day 1 when I first woke up. Slight morning wood that disappeared within 30 seconds. It's like I'm getting mocked by my cock when yesterday I was getting cock blocked by my cock. I am thankful however for the fact that I did get some sembalance of morning wood.
yodaranch
Member
Hey man, was reading your story and just wanted to drop a line to say your not alone (!) and keep the good work up!
You mentioned you wanted to be "a normal member of society" again. I almost think PMO is the normal way for young man these days, sadly.
Anyway Im glad your striving for improvement! Something thats always helping me is to take the reboot day by day. Only today "matters" so to speak.
The now + the now of tomorrow + the now of the day after tomorrow etc = our whole life.
If that makes sense.
Best Y.
You mentioned you wanted to be "a normal member of society" again. I almost think PMO is the normal way for young man these days, sadly.
Anyway Im glad your striving for improvement! Something thats always helping me is to take the reboot day by day. Only today "matters" so to speak.
The now + the now of tomorrow + the now of the day after tomorrow etc = our whole life.
If that makes sense.
Best Y.
misc person 86
Active Member
Adicktive_Mentality said:
I need to hear about your knees haha. But seriously, well done for getting back on the wagon. You'll get there.
But your arthritis. I'm interested. What are the symptoms if you don't mind me asking?
My drs are saying I have inflammation but I think they're wrong. I have burning knees internally and crackling when squatting. Doesn't feel good. Been like this for a couple of months now.
hey bud. I just wanted to share a video that has given me new perspectives. I'm not religious but being a porn addict has made me feel more like i need to reach out to others, people, nature and spiritual stuff all in an effort to get the help I need to reset my brain's thought patterns and my distorted views on reality, my reality being addicted to porn
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27vPi0WBK20&t=731s
I truly wish you the best on this journey. You are not alone, remember that when you feel down and it seems hard to get over this thing. Also sending you compassionate support man. Nature gave us pleasure and desire and society collectively as a whole has not given us as young children the proper education and upbringing to aid us in making the right moral choices to shape us into productive and decent people.
My dad was an alcoholic, my brother too and I fell into porn. We are a lot of times predisposed to these things and more over when we don't get the right guidance. Keep on keeping on friend.
Wishing you the best
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27vPi0WBK20&t=731s
I truly wish you the best on this journey. You are not alone, remember that when you feel down and it seems hard to get over this thing. Also sending you compassionate support man. Nature gave us pleasure and desire and society collectively as a whole has not given us as young children the proper education and upbringing to aid us in making the right moral choices to shape us into productive and decent people.
My dad was an alcoholic, my brother too and I fell into porn. We are a lot of times predisposed to these things and more over when we don't get the right guidance. Keep on keeping on friend.
Wishing you the best