To be able to pull out the Sword again

[Akainu]

Hello guys.
I'm 22 years old from Sweden.

What is my problem?
I can't get a hard boner anymore unless I jack off to porn

Long story short
I don't know if porn is the problem or not. But I've watched it since I was 12. Very often. I could jack off up to 8 times a day back then. Then it became 2 times a week... The recent 3 years I've realized I have difficulties getting something that was so easy to get before. A hard boner. Now it just becomes like a varm hot dog. I can't have sex with a condom on. And without condom I can only do it one time and then it would be impossible to get it hard again. I thought the problem was alcohol or something, but then this made more sense to me. Because the way I jack off, it can't be good for my brain. It's like drugs or a very bad eating habit. I watch porn and jack off even though I'm not even horny, only to achieve that orgasm feeling, especially during stressed situations. This simply can't be good in the long run. I can't believe I didn't figure this out earlier. I really hope it's possible to right my wrongs.

WHAT is My Goal?
It's mainly to be able to get those easily obtained hard as steel boners again. For example, I kiss a girl and bam, there it is. I miss them so much. It's embarrassing to not have them anymore when I'm with a girl.

HOW will I get there?
By stop watching porn completely. Stop fantasizing about porn and sex as much as possible. Stop mausterbating. 

WHEN?
Starting from now. Actually I'm on day 5 as Im writing this. I don't know for sure how long yet. But as long as it takes to heal. Whatever it takes, I'll do it.

Objectives
One week
Half of a month
One month
One and a half month
Two months


I can do this!

 

[jnv]

Welcome on board!
Congratulation for your day 5!

 

[Akainu]

#Day 6

I have not feel the urge to jack off to porn yet. Really weird. I don't know why. Is it because my strong mentality? That I told myself STOP and it stopped? Another weird thing is that my buddy seems more dead than ever down there Except during the nights, then it becomes like a warm sausage again.

 

[Akainu]

#Day 6 again

I'm at the end of this day and I know it's only been 6 days but I'm understanding my problem more and more.
As I'm studying right now I feel like doing the M to feel the O. But I don't even think I'm horny.
I honestly think my brain is telling me to do it just to get that feeling. Haha, it's like drugs? Well good thing I'm saying no then.

 

[Akainu]

#Day 7 (ONE WEEK!)  ;D

I have not been horny lately at all.
But today I feel very happy.
I'm not even that tired even though I slept so few hours.

Right now I'm meeting this hot blonde. I'll probably kiss her alot Gotta go see ya!

 

[Akainu]

#Day 8

Interesting. Yesterday when I was on a date with the blonde. As soon as we kissed a bit I started to feel some crazy action down there. Good signs. I don't know if it was a full erection though, would be weird to check.

When I got home I actually got blue balls and this is not a myth. When a man gets sexually aroused without coming,  blue balls can happen and I couldn't believe it but it happend to me. My balls hurted a bit and all you need to do is to "release the pressure", OR wait it out. Blue balls is nothing dangerous and its just a process that will pass automatically.
After like 2 hours, it wore off, thank god. 

 

[LifeWarrior]

Congrats on the progress so far!

The whole condom thing has been an issue for me as well. I was in a long relationship where we didn't have to use them, and the change of women and expectation to use a condom in combo with the P put me through some ED issues similar to what you are dealing with.

You are headed in the right direction. Have fun with the blonde girl.