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Hi Friends,
I came here from another recovery forum because it's pretty dead. I'm 21 years old, active duty USAF, and from Alaska. I don't really feel the need to go over my entire history here, but I have been addicted to LUST, porn, and masturbation for the past 5 years. I have spent 5 grueling years trying to fight this addiction with no success. I have tried everything this forum has suggested in the past, and it doesn't work for me long term. I'm a very strong Christian, and I don't believe I can let go of my addiction by myself because I have done EVERYTHING. I'm tired of fighting this, so I'm going to focus on letting it go.
Part of my routine includes:
- Talking with my accountability partners over the phone everyday
- Reading the bible and other recovery materials every day
- Meditating most days
- Exercise at least 3 times per week
- Posting on recovery forums every day
- No girlfriend (Too much going on in my life right now)
- No Youtube, Facebook, TV, videogames, movies, bars, nightclubs, alcohol, caffeine, fast food, junk food in general, or going places just to stare at women.
- Community Service once per week
- No sexual contact with myself or anyone else
Some of these restrictions are temporary (sexual contact, girlfriend, technology restrictions), but for right now, I know I absolutely can't handle it because I have already tried so much.
Finally, I'm not here to shit on anyone else's journals or views, so please, if you don't like what I post, just move on to another journal, respect my journal.
Day 3 today
I came here from another recovery forum because it's pretty dead. I'm 21 years old, active duty USAF, and from Alaska. I don't really feel the need to go over my entire history here, but I have been addicted to LUST, porn, and masturbation for the past 5 years. I have spent 5 grueling years trying to fight this addiction with no success. I have tried everything this forum has suggested in the past, and it doesn't work for me long term. I'm a very strong Christian, and I don't believe I can let go of my addiction by myself because I have done EVERYTHING. I'm tired of fighting this, so I'm going to focus on letting it go.
Part of my routine includes:
- Talking with my accountability partners over the phone everyday
- Reading the bible and other recovery materials every day
- Meditating most days
- Exercise at least 3 times per week
- Posting on recovery forums every day
- No girlfriend (Too much going on in my life right now)
- No Youtube, Facebook, TV, videogames, movies, bars, nightclubs, alcohol, caffeine, fast food, junk food in general, or going places just to stare at women.
- Community Service once per week
- No sexual contact with myself or anyone else
Some of these restrictions are temporary (sexual contact, girlfriend, technology restrictions), but for right now, I know I absolutely can't handle it because I have already tried so much.
Finally, I'm not here to shit on anyone else's journals or views, so please, if you don't like what I post, just move on to another journal, respect my journal.
Day 3 today