21 days into reboot

profapper

profapper

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hello im new to nofap im 20 years old an 21 days into reboot. not my first reboot. i often try but always got back to the same bad habits becouse of continues failed attemps and rejects from real life girls, and if i did get lucky pied was ther to keep me a permanent virgin. its great to see how many people online have the same problem. i tried to talk to people in my life about this like friends and they look at me like im an idiot, thay wach porn sometimes and have no problems :-\
 
profapper

profapper

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just watched a movie that had nudity in it, getin bad urges after, i feel anxious like im inevitably gona give in. but i know its all bad if i do so im tryin my best.
 
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ankit

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Dont quit your struggle man i just had the relapse and i am feeling terrible now i cant get out of the house nor i can meet my friends because my self esteem is so much low. I also saw a seen in a movie and i consider that letting go is the best option obviously its not easy but its right.. Just dont pay attention to it as it will strenghten your connection with that pic or clip.
 
profapper

profapper

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i know what you mean about the self esteam thing. my addiction started at 15 goin into high school, before that i only had psp with pics on it, as soon as i got an ipod touch with safari it was like smeegle in lord of the rings. id be doin my thing every day after school sometimes multiple times a day. before that i was a pretty outgoing kid usualy horsin around with other kids pissing off teachers an havin fun, pretty much what i remember from middleschool. in high school i remember feeling depressed alot, barely any friends, bad grades, i felt like i wasent as smart as all the other kids. i felt like i was isolated from everyone else there an i didnt even know who i was, just uncomfterable in my own skin. all i wanted to do was get back to my room and pmo. had a very low self esteam all four years.  ps thanks for the support ankit
 
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ankit

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Profapper it seems you are telling my story i too started at 14 or 15 and i was good in middle school in all aspects but when i got to high school and discovered porn everything just reversed my grades got low . my physical strength was low and i felt like an alien in the crowd ..the struggle continued all through my high school and i ended up hating everybody else and myself too..lets start the no fap journey and starve the devil to death
 
profapper

profapper

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day 24 i might have relapsed. i looked at p for like 5 mins no mo. realised how bad this was and stoped. im realising ive never been away from p that long and i just need to see naked women and its so unaccessible in real life, porn ends up bein my only option. i dont know if wnen after reboot you lose the insane wanting of women in p and real life, but i hope so. s
anyway do you guys think i should start over or keep goin?
 
profapper

profapper

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relapsed day 24 back to day 1.  just realising how hard rebooting is, this sucks! i was actualy feeling good after 20 days, no jitteriness, clear minded, and that gloomy depressed feeling was going away. now its all back. i need to realy try harder. still got over 60 days before i turn 21 hopefully i can be rebooted by then. do you guys have any methods to succeed? thanks
 
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ankit

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hey profapper i know that after relapsing we feel like shit ...i have gone through this feeling several times ..
just pay no attention to your goal of no fapping i know it sounds funny but dont think about it just take one day at a time ..
whole of your focus should be on how to make my this day clean..
and stay away from even the pics of girls in shorts.. no matter how hardcore porn you watched now you can get tempted by almost anything..
so whenever you are in doubt leave your comfort zone ..
live the journey and love the journey..
best wishes....
-ankit
 
profapper

profapper

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thanks ankit, makes alot of sense. its funny how in school they always say how bad street drugs are, and nothing about the one thats the easiest to get for kids and maybe the worst.
 
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rajmen

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I have stopped fapping for the last 2 months but I still can't seem to move with anyone . I feel like being alone all the time. Someone please help!
 
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pr4v33n2u

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Ah man 24 days and a relapse? :(
First of all congratulations! And what was ur trigger for the relapse?
Next time when you feel the need to relapse.. ask urself why should you. You can quickly get an inner voice replying with a proper reason. Ask yourself again for more 6 times. You see the reasons the inner voice gives you get lamer by the 5th question.
You will feel the reality you will Feel more aware. Try it next time n tell me hw it goes. U can write down the answer if u want!
 
profapper

profapper

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me: must find naked women in real life! attempts to talk to multiple real life girls, fails. mind: just give up, real girls dont care about you,  porn is all you got! me: thinking of all the failed efforts in seeking real girls proving the mind right, leading to eventual relapse.
 
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rajmen

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profapper said:
what exactly do you mean by move with anyone?
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I mean I am nowadays feeling to shy to talk to anyone. Call it "shyness" or a complete "aversion" to people . I feel like being alone all the time
 
profapper

profapper

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i feel that during p addiction. like when im in public i feel out of place, and like people are watching me. but after like 15 days rebooting its alot less. how bad is your addiction? low long?
 
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fidoplay

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Hey, I'm very thankful for you guys and your honesty.

I heard if you have fallen say off a horse after riding it for 8 hrs straight why not celebrate the 8 hrs you rode the horse and not the negativity of the fall? Just get back on the horse and continue to ride and you will fall off eventually less and less over time. Hopefully a time comes when you never fall off again! :)

God Bless
 
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ankit

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hey profapper
i too find myself like an alien in foreign land
i always think that hey people are watching you and i get scared and depressed
 
profapper

profapper

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relapsed 13 days in. i still have like a month until college classes start and i
NEED to stop p now if i want to succeed in life, if i fail this time i know i wont be able to think straight and succeed in education. how do you block p on iphone/ itouch?
 
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