JasonGuitar
Active Member
Posted something similar over at Your Brain Rebalanced too, but through watching Gabe's videos I wanted to come here as well.
I just started reading about PIED and my mind has been blown. I watched Gabe's videos and he and I share a very similar history. I remember having mags as a very young boy as well as watching TV shows and movies with sex in them and masturbating after the parents had gone to bed, which grew into watching porn as I got older and high speed internet was available. Fast forward to years later, and I was in a near-sexless marriage for 10 years (sex roughly 10-12 times a year) so porn was a big part of my sex(less) life. She wasn't the most sexual person in the world, however now that my eyes are opening to this issue, I am seeing that it was probably at least partially my doing as well, due to the porn. Here I was masturbating to porn, saying to myself "I wish she did that" and trying to make her into one of these porn stars. We had our other issues, but I see now how this contributed.
So, marriage over, now I am in a new relationship where sex is frequent, and symptoms of ED are starting to pop up. This has been going on for about a month consistently, with a few instances over the last 8 months or so where I couldn't get/stay up. We have had the conversation and I have seen my doctor about ED. I'm waiting for a follow up to determine next steps there, whether it's meds, diet and exercise (which I need to work on) or some kind of supplements. But after viewing this forum and some of the links, I think it's PIED.
Even though I'm in a sex-ful relationship now, I still find myself wanting to watch porn and masturbate during the day (I work from home). Sometimes this includes 'sexting' or flirting with my girlfriend, sometimes it's just me on my own, watching porn and getting off. Sometimes edging for hours before finally ejaculating. This also, obviously, affects my work productivity. That hasn't been an issue yet, but I don't want it to become one. On the relationship front, I feel bad because I am very attracted to my girlfriend in so many ways, but there are times that I just can't get it up. Lately, it's been most times.
So here I am pouring my heart and soul out to strangers on the internet, but I think I've found the solution to my problem. I am 100% convinced this is my problem, and I am going cold turkey to porn starting right now. I plan to keep reading and frequent this forum, hopefully coming here instead of my usual porn sites for inspiration and support. I actually have tears welling up in my eyes because I think I have found the solution to a happy and healthy sex life and relationship with my girlfriend, who I fully plan to make my wife someday.
Thanks for reading. I'm glad I stumbled across information on PIED. I had no idea it existed before today.
Jason
I just started reading about PIED and my mind has been blown. I watched Gabe's videos and he and I share a very similar history. I remember having mags as a very young boy as well as watching TV shows and movies with sex in them and masturbating after the parents had gone to bed, which grew into watching porn as I got older and high speed internet was available. Fast forward to years later, and I was in a near-sexless marriage for 10 years (sex roughly 10-12 times a year) so porn was a big part of my sex(less) life. She wasn't the most sexual person in the world, however now that my eyes are opening to this issue, I am seeing that it was probably at least partially my doing as well, due to the porn. Here I was masturbating to porn, saying to myself "I wish she did that" and trying to make her into one of these porn stars. We had our other issues, but I see now how this contributed.
So, marriage over, now I am in a new relationship where sex is frequent, and symptoms of ED are starting to pop up. This has been going on for about a month consistently, with a few instances over the last 8 months or so where I couldn't get/stay up. We have had the conversation and I have seen my doctor about ED. I'm waiting for a follow up to determine next steps there, whether it's meds, diet and exercise (which I need to work on) or some kind of supplements. But after viewing this forum and some of the links, I think it's PIED.
Even though I'm in a sex-ful relationship now, I still find myself wanting to watch porn and masturbate during the day (I work from home). Sometimes this includes 'sexting' or flirting with my girlfriend, sometimes it's just me on my own, watching porn and getting off. Sometimes edging for hours before finally ejaculating. This also, obviously, affects my work productivity. That hasn't been an issue yet, but I don't want it to become one. On the relationship front, I feel bad because I am very attracted to my girlfriend in so many ways, but there are times that I just can't get it up. Lately, it's been most times.
So here I am pouring my heart and soul out to strangers on the internet, but I think I've found the solution to my problem. I am 100% convinced this is my problem, and I am going cold turkey to porn starting right now. I plan to keep reading and frequent this forum, hopefully coming here instead of my usual porn sites for inspiration and support. I actually have tears welling up in my eyes because I think I have found the solution to a happy and healthy sex life and relationship with my girlfriend, who I fully plan to make my wife someday.
Thanks for reading. I'm glad I stumbled across information on PIED. I had no idea it existed before today.
Jason