ditching_porn
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Well here I am. I'm 44, married to a woman I love and I'm a dad. Haven't been able to really make love in a long time. I've been travelling for work a lot, and I have substituted porn for real intimacy and now it's pretty clear after doing a whole bunch of reading that PMO has had a hugely negative impact. For the longest time I've thought it was performance anxiety, and I think that's actually how it started. I visited the doc and fell in love with the little blue pill. Then I started to travel and all of a sudden I'm away from home 240 nights a year and wanking like a wild man. Always to porn. Because I was away so much, sex at home became irregular anyway, and with the inability to perform, it frustrated both of us, so sex just wasn't something we did. So more wanking. More porn. The magic blue pill no longer worked. But I could sure get it up with some porn, so the plumbing works.
I'm home from the road and want to have sex again. My beautiful wife is onside with helping me 'get my mojo back' and I feel great about it.
I'm 6 days in, and feeling good about this decision. Whether it's an addiction or a dependency or a tool, it doesn't matter. Porn has gotta go. I'm not so naive to think that just because I want to stop that I'll be successful, but I want to stop. Badly. And I need help. I was so excited to find this site and the www.yourbrainonporn.com site. I think there's power in knowing that I'm not alone and that what's happening has a name, and a process to find my way through.
Stay tuned.
I'm home from the road and want to have sex again. My beautiful wife is onside with helping me 'get my mojo back' and I feel great about it.
I'm 6 days in, and feeling good about this decision. Whether it's an addiction or a dependency or a tool, it doesn't matter. Porn has gotta go. I'm not so naive to think that just because I want to stop that I'll be successful, but I want to stop. Badly. And I need help. I was so excited to find this site and the www.yourbrainonporn.com site. I think there's power in knowing that I'm not alone and that what's happening has a name, and a process to find my way through.
Stay tuned.