this its crazy.

[heroack]

So i joined 3 days ago and everything was going fine and i do feel better and hopeful. Yesterday was my first day clean. Today i woke up and my biggest trigger its when my girlfriend leave the home before me. When i usually watch porn usually i hold myself from cuming but this morning was different. I have an account in a porn site and a bunch of bookmarks. When i diceded to quit 3 days ago i didnt erase them.

Yesterday my mind was set that i would never watch porn again but today i failed. I woke up and my girlfriend left to do some stufff and i was in the room alone and all the craving cames but i know better cuz i know how my brain on porn works. This time i said to myself that Itll be the last time. Usually when am done watching porn i feel really tire and depressed. Usually when i cum watching porn i get ashame and guilty so the only way i could delete all my bookmarks and account its to feel like that , at least for me. So after i finished i deleted everything related to porn.

Now hopefully i messed up today with a stupid excuse, but hopefully with all that out of my phone i can have more of a clear mind. My recovery starts tomorrow because i messed up already today but that dont mean ill use anymore today. Well it starts now but my first day clean would be tomorrow. Thanks.

 

[mccrayj]

gotta erase them even if you developed a bad habit of multiple tabs, bookmarks, a specific download folder like i have.

Every time i relapse i do these things  then immediately delete them all shortly thereafter.

They are triggers and if you keep anything P related on your PC it makes relapsing easier to happen.

I find Porn blocking software a hindrance, especially K9 web protection. I did advocate for this awhile back but i changed my mind. Having somethign automatically block something just causes me to get around it, probably because when i was a kid living with my parents I would do the same with THEIR internet fillter program.

Getting a stress ball might help if you're using porn when you're feeling bad.

If you're using porn to escape boredom then think of something you can learn to do.

Learning something is a very engaging brain activity and doing that helps rewire your brain to a new habit, and the old porn habit gets weaker and weaker and weaker.

ALWAYS BE LEARNING SOMETHING if you want to win. You will always have old porn signals in your brain until you die but the signals get weaker and weaker each time you overcome a temptation.

Key is Overcoming temptation THE MOMENT It happens.

Always be learning something.