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Day 19. Relapse. :-( The monster which awakened the last few days took over control. I was naïve. After the "slip but no fall" from yesterday I lost focus. Like a switch changed position in my brain, I started sex-chatting again, in the morning, at work (!!), until I relapsed shortly after I...

Day 18 So. I'm back from holiday. How did it go the remaining days? A bit of a rollercoaster. Slowly the initial 'interest' after the event in the sauna converted into urges to start sex-chatting again. Which I did for a bit, without fapping. Largely because I was in a cabin with my family, so...

Day 14 This morning I woke up very horny. Which then turned into a strong craving. But it was different than the addiction cravings from before. It felt more like normal horniness, than the dopamine high I would have during sex chatting. I think I know what triggered it. Yesterday I went into...

Day 11. So far so good. Still no cravings. Barely any urge comes up to watch porn or do sex chatting. I don't really notice any improvements yet in the areas where the addiction was ruining my life. I'm still very often unmotivated, grumpy, lethargic. I still don't feel any more sexual...

Day 8. Things are going quite well. I still have barely any cravings. Here and there I notice, a very weak trigger, mostly when I'm bored or when I can't sleep. But it is not really a craving, it is more that it has become a habit to fap at these moment, so the idea still comes up to fap. It...

Currently I'm on day 4 since my last post and my last relapse. How did it go so far? Ups and downs. Since the last relapse, the BDSM cravings virtually dissapeared. There were some moments where there was some temptation, but I realize now these were more habitual. For example when I was very...

Okay, so the last few days I've been thinking a lot. And ironically (and perhaps obviously) I relapsed today. My addicted brain convinced me once again to go sex-chatting. So: I need a plan. A vision for the future to give me motivation to keep going in my reboot. In other words: What is my...

Wow, so it has been almost 3 years since my last post here. As you might have guessed, I let things slide, and didn't make my 30 day streak. Partially this was due to the extreme boredom during the covid lockdowns, but also because my addicted self started convincing me I am not addicted...

Hi All, My name is Pippin. I'm 29 years old, and I have been struggling with a fap/porn/sex chatting addiction for a very very long time. I have acknowledged that this is a problem several times before, but have never managed to get the discipline and find the energy to really fight this thing...