Recent content by therealthing

Is watching P an act of infidelity? Is M’ing on its own? Is M’ing to P? My personal answers: yes, no, yes. In that order. I’m trying to wrap my head around it. For years I’ve just tried to tell myself that it’s “normal” for guys to regularly watch it. These threads are giving me hope...

I’m hoping to see the same. Feeling just how you expressed above - not sure how to get over the disgust. When you asked how someone who loves you could lie to you like that - a betrayal of trust to be sure - and my immediate thought is that he wants to protect you from what he knows is wrong...

Someone on a thread has mentioned the lack of support outside Christian communities. I too want resources for dealing with this outside of a biblical narrative. Something about habitual P use feels wrong, and I don’t need any god to tell me that. But…. I’m a modern woman - where’s my sense of...

This was helpful. 😩😫😭

I really appreciate that validation! It’s tough as a female partner to want to be desired, want to meet his needs, and feel that I somehow fall short. Addiction is complicated. Behaviors are learned and have to be unlearned. I understand it all from a logical perspective, but that doesn’t...

Oh, and the username…. It’s because I am the real thing. I just wish that’s what he wanted.

I called this journal “Maybe one day he’ll want me?” because I guess that’s the hope I’m searching for here. I’ve had healthy sexual relationships, with a lot of love, enough kink, and plenty of the gentle quiet intimacy that follows a sexual encounter between two healthy people in love who...