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    Useful idiot

    At 61, in shape, beautiful wife (no really) and buffered by my constant relapse, if that's what we call it. My own self talk justifies my actions and my wife's unavailable tone and her sex Starving me often leads to self talk. At the moment no porn, no desire for it but I need to not blame...
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    Old demons

    Seems they got me, I lose. I was good for years but wife sex starved me and I went back to sewer. Confessed everything to her in 2018. Not a good idea. To her, every sexual request is "from porn." Her belief is that if she can easily go without sex, husband can too. So, I gave in to porn again...
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    Lent...giving up this

    So as a former catholic I thought my edging habits were too frequent as was my Instagram (bikini material). So I gave it up for 40 days. So far I spend little time on the computer and the few minutes I take edging saved me some time. Wife is still cold and I feel relatively the same.
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    still going strong/still no career

    No, nothing ever worked. Much prayer from people around me but no success. Lockdowns further ruined everything. All has failed. My job now is a driver, par time. Still on welfare. Once again, all has failed, there is no final satisfying job/career in my future at 59 its over.
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    Hi, I'd appreciate it if you'd read my story and HELP ME with some QUESTIONS

    First of all, if you are young, your sexuality will be huge. Its perfectly normal to jack that thing, however... the girlfriend needs to work with you AND...you need to do other things with her in public like, visiting a museum, go to a car show, go out to eat in either a fast food place or a...
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    sexuality in truth the way God intended

    Been awhile since I shared anything. First thing here that I notice is that a few posts here involve gay desire and gay sex mixed with a past with women (bi-sexuality). I'm not offering a criticism but a majority (98%) of men are heterosexual so to include bisexuality and strictly gay sex seems...
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    my solution

    I try to remind people that when the wife hits menopause, she will need hormone treatment. Have her see the doc. My solution is one in which you build momentum. If you relapse, or just look at several nude pics, (welcome to instagram) just remove links for that app or website. If you are seeing...
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    quarantine with no sex?

    Damn this quarantine! My porn habits are gone but not the explicit pic thing. Instagram is one of the same. No porn per say but many women/models place pics there. Solution; delete app. Done. Yeah I go back and reinstall once in a while to update my own family stuff but too many pretty girl...
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    still going strong/still no career

    The porn quit date was Nov 2017. My full confession to my wife was around May 2019. Reboot nation use was around 2015 when I reduced my porn viewing habits about 90%. As I said in other posts, it is still too late. The 8 years of unemployment, welfare and worthless graduate degree, have not...
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    my success

    Ok review of me; Married 30+ kids 5+...was unemployed 2009 to 2017. Welfare income took care of special needs kids. Wife worked. my porn habit was playboy mostly from dads mags as a teen to about 17 when I bought my own for years. Upon meeting wife, got off porn for short time. Started porn...
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    the warning of Lazarus

    young men: As a Christian I viewed porn since I was young. Slowing down to zero and then relapsing repeatedly over the last 30 years. The Lord would not have it. My redemption did not include willful and deliberate sin. my career and any substitute career were halted and I never succeeded. Now...
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    Biblical example

    Seems strange to me that slavery in the past would be defeated. We relax and then become addicted to porn and/or debt. A different form of slavery where the master is the Devil and the prisoner who holds the keys is you and me.
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    Update on my pathetic humiliating life

    it was stupid but my grad school recommended law enforcement jobs. So at 55 and as a very fit guy, ok. The fitness workouts they offer for free on two days of the week was good for me and I did well. It ended in flames. Backgrounds, had to lie about me and that's what they did to get rid of me...
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    it is over

    My finances have finally gotten to me and my ruin has overtaken me. My time on this forum has to take an absence. I've lost 2 other sources of income in our home. My wife's workers comp has failed and besides her continued neck pain, we are subject to the politics of workers comp that will not...
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    you're all getting this wrong

    Its about brain stimulation. Find other activities to stimulate you. Time is not a factor just a measurement of how long. There is a threshold of time you need to pass before it gets easier. That factor varies.
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    No porn for some time

    In the midst of life I noticed a reduction not only in porn viewing but desire to view it. I suppose I can pat myself on the back and say, "I'm so clever." But really, is it me? Or is it my age. Is my own personal nude time helping me? Or perhaps I have so much reduced the habit of porn that my...
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    Update on Olaf

    My Master's degree is finished. I remain unemployed. My wife continues to be cold and accuse me of fabricated crimes against her constantly. The supplement was a success for her mysterious leg pain. Now she often "forgets" to take the supplement and has an excuse to complain of leg cramps again...
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    Here is the science to porn in plain english

    relapse. what is it? do you have any other way to excite your brain? Remember the idea behind reboot is to go back to baseline excitement and only do those things that excite you a little. Porn is a way to really jack up the excitement chemicals in your brain. While looking at a nude pic, you...
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    looking back at 2015 a failed year

    It has been sadly a year of failure. However, my porn habits have been so greatly reduced that I no longer call it an addiction. My habits are that most computer time is spent job hunting, looking at marriage, politics and other blogs. I love Pinterest and yet the temptation to look at nude or...
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