achilles heel
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Happy to read that, keep improving! 
Journey to My Self (I swear the god I will make it !!)
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hi everyone ! i dont post often, but i aint feel great this times
fuck guys, 30 days and i'm so confused, depression anxiety are here (not a part of nofap, maybe anxiety tough) but because of external stuff but anyway i will take care of it. the thing is : no sex drive, no sex drive and a kind of shame of not having it, of not being in the game of women and stuff, you see ? i feel anxious and uncomfortable a lot,and a kind of shame when people talk about sex, since i have no drive (fuck this). fuck i cant feel love either, i feel so blocked
right now right now ? i clearly something in my dick, something that want to come out, i dont want to relapse, why ? dont want to feel empty or just regret it, to see, fuck all this for this dude ? You aint feeling better because of your lil fap, and i dont want to waste the energy thats my mindset.
what i hope guys ? nocturnal emission, just to have this feeling "oh yeah, nature is doing its stuff im not broken and i dont have to interfere"
also not masturbating because fuck guys, my last relapse were on porn, then on those very bad incestous fantasies of the past, and after i felt awful.... what i'm saying is that i'm not rebooted enough to have healthy sex drive and to have, yes, a good drive to fuck with real and healthy fantazy...
so yes i wont masturbate, and will try to put myself out there
bye guys
achille your counter is awesome, you the man keep going, go to your dream, you can do it
fuck guys, 30 days and i'm so confused, depression anxiety are here (not a part of nofap, maybe anxiety tough) but because of external stuff but anyway i will take care of it. the thing is : no sex drive, no sex drive and a kind of shame of not having it, of not being in the game of women and stuff, you see ? i feel anxious and uncomfortable a lot,and a kind of shame when people talk about sex, since i have no drive (fuck this). fuck i cant feel love either, i feel so blocked
right now right now ? i clearly something in my dick, something that want to come out, i dont want to relapse, why ? dont want to feel empty or just regret it, to see, fuck all this for this dude ? You aint feeling better because of your lil fap, and i dont want to waste the energy thats my mindset.
what i hope guys ? nocturnal emission, just to have this feeling "oh yeah, nature is doing its stuff im not broken and i dont have to interfere"
also not masturbating because fuck guys, my last relapse were on porn, then on those very bad incestous fantasies of the past, and after i felt awful.... what i'm saying is that i'm not rebooted enough to have healthy sex drive and to have, yes, a good drive to fuck with real and healthy fantazy...
so yes i wont masturbate, and will try to put myself out there
bye guys
achille your counter is awesome, you the man keep going, go to your dream, you can do it
also also als, i noticed : yes social anxiety, i try to avoid it and rationnalize it, but sometimes i'm confident as fuck and sometimes no, but when i'm not, it just piss me off and i tend to leave, like fuck i got to go, i dont like being insecure or so.. but its not like that that things should be done, feelings are temporary, emotions too, i got to hold on and let it pass... i dont like being a slave to my feelings
i also got to stop worrying or get anxious for nothing or just imagining worst case scenario, rahhhh, i got to learn to be a fonctionnal humain being
i got to stop being insecure and let go of stuff, stop being anxious of missing stuff, or stop being indecisive as hell,
i got to learn to let go of stuff, let go of regret and so on...because guys, we have one life, and when you start to spend your time being anxous, stressed, and in your head, being self conscious, just being too serious, pff, you start to say fuck i want to live and let go off this mental stuff
peace guys
best book ever "the peaceful warrior" dan millman
i also got to stop worrying or get anxious for nothing or just imagining worst case scenario, rahhhh, i got to learn to be a fonctionnal humain being
i got to stop being insecure and let go of stuff, stop being anxious of missing stuff, or stop being indecisive as hell,
i got to learn to let go of stuff, let go of regret and so on...because guys, we have one life, and when you start to spend your time being anxous, stressed, and in your head, being self conscious, just being too serious, pff, you start to say fuck i want to live and let go off this mental stuff
peace guys
best book ever "the peaceful warrior" dan millman
Hi everyone
Fuck I relapse.... no, just kidding (nothing funny actually lol), 40 days and couting.
Things are better, I'm with the fam', good physical shape, enjoying family time and getting some love it feels good.
Actually, how can I say, I feel this whole journey of nofap is all about self love, and love also. Love is the big word, the big stuff in life, when you are in love (in genereal), everything flows easily.. Just some thoughts, but yes, love, love, love.
I don't want to be a fucking master tinder, getting sex everyday with many girls, what I want is a real connection with a girlfriend, a real feeling (i have no doubt I can have true feelings of love, getting rid of porn gave me this certainty)
Anxiety is still solid as hell and I'm doing prayer morning and at night to keep the right things in mind and just ask for being stronger against my lower self
Ultimately, I want to get over my demon and over this insecurity, this deep-rooted insecurity about life in geenral that is inside me, time anxiety, self anxiety, futur anxiety...anxiety of being my own enemy etc... and just being able to relax and chill like ahhh
day 40, and i don't want to relapse again
peace you all, happy hilidays, merry christmas, all the best
Fuck I relapse.... no, just kidding (nothing funny actually lol), 40 days and couting.
Things are better, I'm with the fam', good physical shape, enjoying family time and getting some love it feels good.
Actually, how can I say, I feel this whole journey of nofap is all about self love, and love also. Love is the big word, the big stuff in life, when you are in love (in genereal), everything flows easily.. Just some thoughts, but yes, love, love, love.
I don't want to be a fucking master tinder, getting sex everyday with many girls, what I want is a real connection with a girlfriend, a real feeling (i have no doubt I can have true feelings of love, getting rid of porn gave me this certainty)
Anxiety is still solid as hell and I'm doing prayer morning and at night to keep the right things in mind and just ask for being stronger against my lower self
Ultimately, I want to get over my demon and over this insecurity, this deep-rooted insecurity about life in geenral that is inside me, time anxiety, self anxiety, futur anxiety...anxiety of being my own enemy etc... and just being able to relax and chill like ahhh
day 40, and i don't want to relapse again
peace you all, happy hilidays, merry christmas, all the best
Hmm as I think,I realize I feel much more anger than in the past, very irritated by a lot of things, and just this pent up anger in the chest area...hard to focus or anything, damn it
sometimes I forgot that I'm on nofap and that in that regard some things are different (more agression in general i guess)
anyway peace all
sometimes I forgot that I'm on nofap and that in that regard some things are different (more agression in general i guess)
anyway peace all