Hello all,
My name is Mark. I'm 28 years old, and I've joined this site to help myself and others conquer the challenges associated with over coming Porn-Induced Erectile Dysfunction (PIED).
It took me a while to admit that I have PIED, but now that I look in retrospect, it's very clear to me that I've had PIED at least since I was in high school (approx 16yrs old (when I got my first girlfriend. )).
At the current juncture, I have no problem getting an erection and climaxing via masturbation with the aid of porn (or fantasizing about porn). That being said, I find that my attraction to real-life women in my day-to-day operations (even when they are very attractive) is almost non-existent. It's as if while I cerebrally know that they are very attractive, the physical drive/libido to do something about it is not there (or it's extremely desensitized); it's almost like looking at brilliant 5 course meal and while knowing that it is expertly prepared and will taste fantastic, you have no natural genuine appetite/drive to eat it. Yeah... Not good. :-/ Whenever I do engage in dealings with a real-women (rarely), I usually have problems physically performing. This is not a sexual orientation issue... I'm a pure cut-n-dry heterosexual. As stated.... I have PIED. :-(
I'm a very social person but at the same time am a bit of a loner. While I wish my natural libido for women was not destroyed by porn, that's not to say that I immediately want a girlfriend; I have many enjoyable but consuming jobs/hobbies; I'm basically habitually single at this point (by choice; I'm not a bad looking guy and girls are interested).
Because of this character trait, I've attempted to justify my PIED by rationing that it suppresses my sexual drive and therefore is logically beneficial in that PMOing (Porn -> Masturbation -> Orgasm) disarms women of this mystical power they posses over heterosexual men (me and helps keep me single and not tied up into a commitment focused relationship. While this in true in some sense, I've come to the conclusion that this practice / modus-operandi is not worth it, is actually quite naive, and is negatively affecting my life in way too many ways. In short... men were not meant to live/function this way.
In specific regard to the PIED that I'm dealing with, Unfortunately, I'm essentially dealing with some degree of ALL of the below ED issues; some much more than others. (Hat Tip "www.yourbrainonporn.com")
-Difficulty reaching orgasm with a partner (delayed ejaculation)
-Experiencing greater sexual excitement using porn than with a partner
-Decreasing sensitivity of penis
-Ejaculating when you are only partly erect, or getting totally erect only as you climax
-Needing to fantasize to maintain erection or interest in sexual partner
-Earlier genres of porn are no longer "exciting"
-Declining sexual arousal with a sexual partner(s)
-Losing erection while attempting penetration
-Can't maintain erection or ejaculate with oral sex
So yeah... this won't do. Not at all.
So... I'M REBOOTING!!!
July 14th 2014 is Day 1 for me. I plan to record my experience in this Journal. Hopefully, logging my experiences will help keep me on track and encourage/educate others.
Wish me luck. I know it's not going to be easy.
-Mark-II
My name is Mark. I'm 28 years old, and I've joined this site to help myself and others conquer the challenges associated with over coming Porn-Induced Erectile Dysfunction (PIED).
It took me a while to admit that I have PIED, but now that I look in retrospect, it's very clear to me that I've had PIED at least since I was in high school (approx 16yrs old (when I got my first girlfriend. )).
At the current juncture, I have no problem getting an erection and climaxing via masturbation with the aid of porn (or fantasizing about porn). That being said, I find that my attraction to real-life women in my day-to-day operations (even when they are very attractive) is almost non-existent. It's as if while I cerebrally know that they are very attractive, the physical drive/libido to do something about it is not there (or it's extremely desensitized); it's almost like looking at brilliant 5 course meal and while knowing that it is expertly prepared and will taste fantastic, you have no natural genuine appetite/drive to eat it. Yeah... Not good. :-/ Whenever I do engage in dealings with a real-women (rarely), I usually have problems physically performing. This is not a sexual orientation issue... I'm a pure cut-n-dry heterosexual. As stated.... I have PIED. :-(
I'm a very social person but at the same time am a bit of a loner. While I wish my natural libido for women was not destroyed by porn, that's not to say that I immediately want a girlfriend; I have many enjoyable but consuming jobs/hobbies; I'm basically habitually single at this point (by choice; I'm not a bad looking guy and girls are interested).
Because of this character trait, I've attempted to justify my PIED by rationing that it suppresses my sexual drive and therefore is logically beneficial in that PMOing (Porn -> Masturbation -> Orgasm) disarms women of this mystical power they posses over heterosexual men (me and helps keep me single and not tied up into a commitment focused relationship. While this in true in some sense, I've come to the conclusion that this practice / modus-operandi is not worth it, is actually quite naive, and is negatively affecting my life in way too many ways. In short... men were not meant to live/function this way.
In specific regard to the PIED that I'm dealing with, Unfortunately, I'm essentially dealing with some degree of ALL of the below ED issues; some much more than others. (Hat Tip "www.yourbrainonporn.com")
-Difficulty reaching orgasm with a partner (delayed ejaculation)
-Experiencing greater sexual excitement using porn than with a partner
-Decreasing sensitivity of penis
-Ejaculating when you are only partly erect, or getting totally erect only as you climax
-Needing to fantasize to maintain erection or interest in sexual partner
-Earlier genres of porn are no longer "exciting"
-Declining sexual arousal with a sexual partner(s)
-Losing erection while attempting penetration
-Can't maintain erection or ejaculate with oral sex
So yeah... this won't do. Not at all.
So... I'M REBOOTING!!!
July 14th 2014 is Day 1 for me. I plan to record my experience in this Journal. Hopefully, logging my experiences will help keep me on track and encourage/educate others.
Wish me luck. I know it's not going to be easy.
-Mark-II