NoFapValentine
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Hello guys,
I'm 19 years old from Germany, I started masturbating and watching porn at around 11/12. I've always been a very open and active guy, until puberty hit me and i got a lot of pimples and my self confidence fell to zero. I discovered NoFap and the science behind it on 13.02.2017 and it really shocks me.. If I would've heard earlier about this, I'd probably have started with this way earlier. I always felt like masturbating isn't good for me, but without any explanation behind it, I didnt feel like its worth giving it up. Nothing gave me the power to really stay strong and stop doing it. But now I think I understood the problem and I have so much motivation to keep doing this and better my life. Since I hit puberty I was always playing a lot of computer games and pretty much lived for school, playing computer games and drinking alcohol on the weekends. I don't really have power or motivation to do anything, thats not 100% pleasuring. But since I finished school last year and I'm now heading towards my time at university where things start to get more serious I'm trying to change my way of life to a more productive Lifestyle, because I wan't to be succesful in life and love.
matching to the Valentines Day I'm starting my NoFap Challenge at the 14.02.2017. I had some NoFap experiences before:
2 weeks at holiday last year, where i wanted to prove myself, that i dont need this. I've had never heard of the science behind NoFap behind this until the 13.02.2017 though.
3 weeks before I was together with my Exgirlfriend 2 years ago. But I started fapping before we got really close in bed, so these 3 weeks didn't help me from experiencing my (probably) Porn induced ED. Numerous times I told myself: Ok, don't fap for the next 3 days and stuff like that, but most of the time it didn't work.
The only reason, why I don't think my ED is 100% porn caused is, because my exgirlfriend was quite a dumb and mean bitch.. At first I didn't see it as a problem, that I didn't get a boner, when we layed in bed and kissed, but she handled it reeeally unprofessional and said stuff like: My exboyfriend always got a boner if we kissed and stuff like that. With the pressure of having to get an erection it got even worse and i got no erection, because then I was also pressured to get an erection. Of course the relationship ended soon after, because for her sex was really important and nothing helped. Since then I'm really struggling to get close with girls, I'm scared to get intimate with girls, because I'm scared that this would happen again.
I looked into the internet for help when this occured, but I sadly didn't find NoFap... I only found some guy, who said it's just being not confident enough and so I lived in a lie, where i thought: theoretically I can get with a girl and I will get hard, but Practically I was too scared, because I felt the doubt in myself, that I can't do it.
Another problem which i discovered is that my view of girls or women is really damaged. It's been years, that I could really say, that I was in love with a girl, it was more like: I want to lay this girl... And always if I meet new girls, I ask myself: Could we maybe get together? but not in a loving way, the feeling would be a way to get sexuel active with her.
So the 3 things im trying to better with my NoFap Journey are:
Fixing my PIED
Getting more active and motivated to live a productive life.
Regaining a normal view of woman.
I'm planning on 90 days of NoFap, quitting porn forever of course. But I'll have to see how it goes, eventually stop masturbating for ever, or minimize it. The goal is to get a girlfriend in autumn and just practice sex and not masturbating.I hope I can find people here, which I can talk with about problems that will occur. I've also convinced 2 friends to do the same journey, but they will probably do only a month.
Puh, I hope some of you fight through this and are willing to read my story
edit: I forgot something: Most of the time I jerked off probably 1-2 times a day and most of the time with porn. I've had some times, where i convinved myself of fapping without porn, but I can't think of the reason right now. But what I realized is, that really many of my thoughts are going into sex and that I don't have any, while others have, and that I'm not able to do so. My biggest wish has been for years to get a girlfriend, but I'm not doing anything for it.
I'm 19 years old from Germany, I started masturbating and watching porn at around 11/12. I've always been a very open and active guy, until puberty hit me and i got a lot of pimples and my self confidence fell to zero. I discovered NoFap and the science behind it on 13.02.2017 and it really shocks me.. If I would've heard earlier about this, I'd probably have started with this way earlier. I always felt like masturbating isn't good for me, but without any explanation behind it, I didnt feel like its worth giving it up. Nothing gave me the power to really stay strong and stop doing it. But now I think I understood the problem and I have so much motivation to keep doing this and better my life. Since I hit puberty I was always playing a lot of computer games and pretty much lived for school, playing computer games and drinking alcohol on the weekends. I don't really have power or motivation to do anything, thats not 100% pleasuring. But since I finished school last year and I'm now heading towards my time at university where things start to get more serious I'm trying to change my way of life to a more productive Lifestyle, because I wan't to be succesful in life and love.
matching to the Valentines Day I'm starting my NoFap Challenge at the 14.02.2017. I had some NoFap experiences before:
2 weeks at holiday last year, where i wanted to prove myself, that i dont need this. I've had never heard of the science behind NoFap behind this until the 13.02.2017 though.
3 weeks before I was together with my Exgirlfriend 2 years ago. But I started fapping before we got really close in bed, so these 3 weeks didn't help me from experiencing my (probably) Porn induced ED. Numerous times I told myself: Ok, don't fap for the next 3 days and stuff like that, but most of the time it didn't work.
The only reason, why I don't think my ED is 100% porn caused is, because my exgirlfriend was quite a dumb and mean bitch.. At first I didn't see it as a problem, that I didn't get a boner, when we layed in bed and kissed, but she handled it reeeally unprofessional and said stuff like: My exboyfriend always got a boner if we kissed and stuff like that. With the pressure of having to get an erection it got even worse and i got no erection, because then I was also pressured to get an erection. Of course the relationship ended soon after, because for her sex was really important and nothing helped. Since then I'm really struggling to get close with girls, I'm scared to get intimate with girls, because I'm scared that this would happen again.
I looked into the internet for help when this occured, but I sadly didn't find NoFap... I only found some guy, who said it's just being not confident enough and so I lived in a lie, where i thought: theoretically I can get with a girl and I will get hard, but Practically I was too scared, because I felt the doubt in myself, that I can't do it.
Another problem which i discovered is that my view of girls or women is really damaged. It's been years, that I could really say, that I was in love with a girl, it was more like: I want to lay this girl... And always if I meet new girls, I ask myself: Could we maybe get together? but not in a loving way, the feeling would be a way to get sexuel active with her.
So the 3 things im trying to better with my NoFap Journey are:
Fixing my PIED
Getting more active and motivated to live a productive life.
Regaining a normal view of woman.
I'm planning on 90 days of NoFap, quitting porn forever of course. But I'll have to see how it goes, eventually stop masturbating for ever, or minimize it. The goal is to get a girlfriend in autumn and just practice sex and not masturbating.I hope I can find people here, which I can talk with about problems that will occur. I've also convinced 2 friends to do the same journey, but they will probably do only a month.
Puh, I hope some of you fight through this and are willing to read my story
edit: I forgot something: Most of the time I jerked off probably 1-2 times a day and most of the time with porn. I've had some times, where i convinved myself of fapping without porn, but I can't think of the reason right now. But what I realized is, that really many of my thoughts are going into sex and that I don't have any, while others have, and that I'm not able to do so. My biggest wish has been for years to get a girlfriend, but I'm not doing anything for it.