I too have watched gay porn a few times,most likely due to it being one of categories in the website I was looking at. I will admit I did once have a sexual encounter with a TV hooker. She was dancing in a strip club and for looked hot. After many yours of drinking the place closed and I offered it a ride . I tied to P but no go but did get oral. Over the years at bachelor parties, retirements we always had strippers putting on a show. I did once go up one stage and participate in a lesbian show. What a mistake coming home with a cum splattered shirt tail and pants.
Three times in my marriage there were issues between my wife and I with porn. Once she found some magazines, then a phone bill with a call to a sex line,and Internet history of a visit to a porn site. I am sure it hurt her deeply. But we got through it. A few time we watched porn together at home, but she didn't like it, thought I would compare her to girls in the videos. I admit I didn't like,watching it too much with her, she may have been comparing my junk with the porn actors.
I know for sure I would have no desire to pay for gay porn , and the fact that most porn is available free just makes matters worse for us that seem hooked. I am far from an expert on anything,but it may be possible for some people to,use porn in a controlled fashion. A person not involved with a partner,may used it to relieve sexual frustration. But in my situation now and my age 64, I feel that frequent MO to porn was affecting my desire and arousal level?so much that I sought help from a dr. Just mow find it strange that I was not. asked about my use of porn . From what I have been reading addiction to porn escalates to harder and stranger things as the brain get used to the old stuff. I have gone a week with out looking at porn, but today while out,shopping I did notice a few hot women and had some sexual thoughts. That for sure is a habit hard to break,as Jimmy Carter said He lusted in his heart.