Road to recovery

[Recovery Will Come]

So I finally tied my longest streak!! 29 days!! Starting week 5 today!! Lets see how today goes.. Went out last night to the club with the homies.. Dancing with girls felt so good rewiring with real women.. Now its time to keep the streak going!! Still a long path ahead of me

 

[Recovery Will Come]

Day 30!!! I have now broke my all time record!! This is fantastic.. Still have a long way to go but the changes Ive noticed so far is definitely more confidence in myself and more motivation to be great!! My mindset and will is like never before right now.. All those relapses and failures made me great!! If anybody relapses thats part of the journey, it's what you learn from the relapses and how you bounce back.. Good Luck rebooters..

 

[Recovery Will Come]

Day 31: Woke up and took my daily morning walk around the neighborhood.. Feels so good and a good replacement for watching porn in the morning... Came back had a healthy breakfast and realized I entered the flatline again.. No worries I'll use low libido as motivation to keep going!! Like Gabe said in one of his videos.. Get comfortable with being uncomfortable... Went to work and wasn't aa social as last week but over succeeding at work which is good... Came home and watching the NBA playoffs as we speak.. Then off to bed.. Been having dreams about porn and relapsing all the time.. Thank god its just a dream when I wake up.. I think my brain doesn't umderstand that porn and fapping are no more.. But ill be patient.. I was told after 90 days the urges go away so we shall see.  Til next time ?

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[Recovery Will Come]

So today I started Week 6!! Day 36: This is a huge milestone for me.. Never knew I would break my own record with 7more days of no pmo... I'm focused and even more motivated before.. Probably my whole life to be honest... I'm still in the flatline and thank god i'm educated about it or I would of been freaked out.. But i'm using it to keeep me motivated.. Can't wait until I get out of it tho lol.. For all the rebooters good luck!! Until next time ?

 

[Hellvangraf]

Hi man, glad you are reaching 36 days right now, Im in 27. Feel proud of myself, I think that you too. Greetings from LATAM and keep going forward.

 

[Recovery Will Come]

Day 39: Woke up so horny today it was ridiculous... Been blocking out stress recently.. Used it as motivation to keep going and moving forward.. This is thr farthest i've ever been for a long shot I gotten out of the flatline on and off but mostly still in it. My libido has been all over the place but I know it will be worth it at the other end of the tunnel.. Also when I woke up had a morning boner that lasted a while.. Its been so long since I had one of those, now I know I'm going down the right direction... Urges are slowly going away too and just want to meet new women... This time i'm going all the way.. Good luck rebooters!!! Until next time ?

 

[Recovery Will Come]

So I started Week 7 today!!!! Day 43: I am so excited... Barely get any porn flashbacks and urges which proves i'm making progress.. I never dreamed of going this far but I did... I know I still have a long way to go... Went to my sister's graduation ceremony to start the day then had dinner at her friends house to celebrate... Overall had a productive day and getting some sleep so I can go to work tomorrow morning.. Good Luck Rebooters!! Until next time ?

 

[Recovery Will Come]

Day:46 Holy shit had another dream of relapsing and it felt so real.. Woke up with the biggest erection I had in years.. Was so horny it was very difficult to resist relapse.. But I did and thats the important part.. Got another boner just typing this smh.. At my grandma's house recovering from a migraine so can't do alot so its very tough to keep going!! But I didn't come this far for no reason and no matter what I got to stick with it!! Which I will do.. Wish me Luck ?

 

[Recovery Will Come]

So started week 8 yesterday!! Still can't believe I made it 51 days... By Sunday I will have gotten to the 2 month mark!! I haven't found something to replace my old habits yet but finally gonna get a gym membership and commit to that.  Just been so busy lately.. Also registering for driving school tomorrow also.. Ever since I put my foot down to stoo this addiction once and for all nothing but good things have been happening... It inspires me to keep going... Still have a long way to go but definitely feel I'm making progress.. Until next time rebooters.. ?

 

[Recovery Will Come]

Day 57: Week 9!!! Made it to week 9!! Excited but exhausted.. I am sick and been having chest pain and inflammation.. Calling my doctor to make a doctors appointment.. I just feel like shit and its very difficult not to stroke right now.. The urge all of a sudden came back.. Just venting in here before I do something stupid.. Any advice would be nice...

 

[Peter]

hey guy,  You're doing an amazing job. You don't want to fall back now, it will break your spirit.

I'm on day 42 and I have to say some days are better than others ,that being you don't want to be on the low . what you should tell yourself is you didn't go for so long to have "record ". Don't let your mind tell you a load of BS , keep your goals in mind.

 

[Recovery Will Come]

Thanks man I did exactly that... Will and determination prevailed so I'm continuing and pushing forward.. It would have been awful if I gave in.. I just remember that feeling of relapse.. This is my strongest and longest stresk yet and I'm hoing all the way.. Again thanks man

 

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Day 64: Week 10 started out perfectly... Until tonight I was under the influence tonight and made a huge mistake of checking on my facebook and instagram.. HUGE MISTAKE.. Now im here trying not to relapse... Holy shit someone advice please...

 

[Recovery Will Come]

Day 0 fucking relapsed... I can't believe this shit...10 fucking weeks.. Longest streak ever.. I'm definitely starting again soon.. I gained so much knowledge.. Though I really did and starting  my new reboot right away..

 

[Recovery Will Come]

I'm gonna start a new journal soon I am so pissed off right now smh

 

[Recovery Will Come]

The hardest thing to do is bounce back from a relapse.. It took me a year to bounce back from my last one and I'm detirmined to start my next one right away.. So many good things happened during my reboot now once again I lack the energy, focus and motivation to acheive them.. It's so frustrating but I will conquer this addiction... I'll just go 110% this time and I know what it felt like to make it 10 weeks and it was wonderful..  So that could be my motivation.. Anybody who has any advice would be helpful.. I'm just exhausted going through this again year after year.. It takes a toll on your mind and body and sticks a dagger through your confidence
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[Recovery Will Come]

Day 1: Starting Day one again after a 10 week streak...  Relasped by making a mistake by checking on my facebook and instagram... NEVER AGAIN.. Back motivated to recover from this bad habit.. Here we go again.... Wish me Luck

 

[Grandson_of_Thatcher]

Hey man, just read your journal. You did amazing! 10 weeks without somethinh you've been hooked on for years! That's a succes!
I do not know how you feel, but you do not start again, you still have all the knowledge you had a week ago. Remember that. This may suck for a while, but it is not the end.
Your story really motivated me.

I wish you all the best,
Grandson_of_thatcher

 

[Bruce]

Hey dude,You have did a fantastic job so far and mistakes  will happen sometimes and take the wisdom out of it.Don't regret. You climbed 100 steps and unfortunately slipped only a step down which means to 99th.So be motivated from the journey you had so far and avoid fatal mistakes.All the very best.
    I joined  today only and accidentally had a look into ur post which inspired me. Iam  too same as you(exact replica of getting into habit in college till now) and lost all my happiness.Going to take my journey from tommorrow  8)

 

[Recovery Will Come]

Thanks for the encouragement.. You are right I made it to 10 weeks and I can do it again and even beyond until I make a full recovery... Welcome to the forum by the way!! Its definitely very heplful to start your journal.. My last run was my first reboot with using this site and I made it 10 weeks! You got this man stay motivated and I will keep supporting you through your journal!! We got this!!