Enlighten me... Why is it so bad for it to go into winter? I'm not sure I understand.
Anyway, I had the same thing happen to me with Facebook a couple weeks ago and it made me relapse too. Facebook is off my phone now. It's kind of reassuring to know I'm not the only one it's happened to, especially after getting pretty far into a reboot. It was only 37 days for me, but I'd never gone that long before and was already starting to feel some signs of healing.
It ended up being more of a confirmation for me than anything. The libido I'd begun to feel coming back died on me again (aside from the chaser effect) and even as I was watching P I was like, "This isn't even good; it's staged and scripted and made for no other reason than to provide unrealistic novelty and support fantasy. This is pathetic that I'm even watching this shit. And now I've gone and broken myself again from doing this. Great. See if I ever do this again."
It was a good experience to learn about some of the things I'd been doing wrong that would help my reboot be successful once I changed them.
I still have no real libido, figured I wouldn't have any after the relapse anyway... Just gotta seek rewiring and not worry about how long the healing process is going to take. And not get excited about healing, and not let yourself have a voyeuristic mindset. Those last two are the next level of the mind game that I figured out I needed to master. Which really just involved a voluntary paradigm shift, aided by some videos from Noah's channel.
You got this, bro! Porn is not an option!
