I?m 19 year old. I?ve been watching porn from a very young age and havent really considered it as a problem. The type of porn I?ve been watching has been getting worse and worse over time and while I have been grossed out by myself at times after watching it, I?ve always gone back to the same disgusting porn.
I?m gay and for the first 4 or so years of my porn-watching I would watch exclusively gay porn, after this point the type of porn has begun to matter less and less, I have simply needed my porn fix, regardless of the shape it comes in, but at the same time I have found that I have become drawn to more and more fetishes that I would never have imagined I would before and stuff that I would never like to be part of in real life.
I've only just begun this journey to a life completely free of P, but it is absolutely vital that I stay on course and do not have any relapses at all, as my relationship with my boyfriend of two years depends on it and I really dont know what I would do without him. He is absolutely supportive of me and has himself stopped watching porn in support, although he hasn't had any issues with addiction. I have also installed web filters on all devices that I may consider using (including a sneakily installed one on my moms PC... lol) and have made sure that only my boyfriend knows the password and that he will not be giving it to me in any situation.
I?ve gone about a week without P so far and I havent really felt any side effects so far, and no real urge to watch porn or masturbate, but it does feel like I am slightly more irritable than usual.
Thank you for existing whether you read this or not, I believe this forum will be an important part of my recovery and I hope we can help eachother through this.
Cheers and keep your hands off your willy
I?m gay and for the first 4 or so years of my porn-watching I would watch exclusively gay porn, after this point the type of porn has begun to matter less and less, I have simply needed my porn fix, regardless of the shape it comes in, but at the same time I have found that I have become drawn to more and more fetishes that I would never have imagined I would before and stuff that I would never like to be part of in real life.
I've only just begun this journey to a life completely free of P, but it is absolutely vital that I stay on course and do not have any relapses at all, as my relationship with my boyfriend of two years depends on it and I really dont know what I would do without him. He is absolutely supportive of me and has himself stopped watching porn in support, although he hasn't had any issues with addiction. I have also installed web filters on all devices that I may consider using (including a sneakily installed one on my moms PC... lol) and have made sure that only my boyfriend knows the password and that he will not be giving it to me in any situation.
I?ve gone about a week without P so far and I havent really felt any side effects so far, and no real urge to watch porn or masturbate, but it does feel like I am slightly more irritable than usual.
Thank you for existing whether you read this or not, I believe this forum will be an important part of my recovery and I hope we can help eachother through this.
Cheers and keep your hands off your willy