alongtheriver
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Day 16
No urges today really to speak of. 3 hours of driving with my wife today and lots of talk over the book we are both reading (Love You, Hate the Porn). Had some good realizations today that related to me feeling inadequate and not worthy. I?m narrowing in on one of my emotional triggers which I think has to do with being in situations where I feel not good enough, or at least compared to those around me. My wife says my perspective on this is skewed from reality and I am quite good at some of these things. But I don?t feel that way and I?m thinking that the cognitive dissonance happening there is one of there reasons I seek out the numbing of tuning out to porn. Talking through this in the car today brought on some good tears on my part, so maybe I?m on to something. Who knows, but worth some thought.
No urges today really to speak of. 3 hours of driving with my wife today and lots of talk over the book we are both reading (Love You, Hate the Porn). Had some good realizations today that related to me feeling inadequate and not worthy. I?m narrowing in on one of my emotional triggers which I think has to do with being in situations where I feel not good enough, or at least compared to those around me. My wife says my perspective on this is skewed from reality and I am quite good at some of these things. But I don?t feel that way and I?m thinking that the cognitive dissonance happening there is one of there reasons I seek out the numbing of tuning out to porn. Talking through this in the car today brought on some good tears on my part, so maybe I?m on to something. Who knows, but worth some thought.