Starting over

[JasonGuitar]

Slips will happen, just don't get discouraged. I have been so close to slipping myself and have pulled myself out of it by the skin of my teeth.

Your relapsing reminds me of when I have tried quitting drinking in the past (I'm doing this again now in addition to reboot). I would go weeks without a drink, then have a rough day at work or something and justify one beer, two beers, a six pack... I have luckily never had any real negative consequences to drinking, I just don't really want to do it any more. It's expensive, it's making me fat, but thus far I have not been able to quit all together. Though I keep trying.

Just keep trying. It is all we can do!

 

[BabySteps]

Hey JasonGuitar,

Thanks alot for your words of encouragement buddy

Let the fight continue!

 

[BabySteps]

Day 1,
In the past 24 hours I've tempted to watch porn again, decided to resist the urge to watch.

Moving forward!

 

[JasonGuitar]

Yesterday taught me that staying strong through the heavy temptation days is worth it. I almost gave into temptation yesterday after slipping just a little and looking at some pictures online (just women, no porn). My libido was out of control and I thought I may have to MO just to be able to move on. BUT, I stayed strong and today things are back where they were on Monday. So not giving in yesterday was very much worth it.

Yesterday was the first day I've really struggled with sticking to this. But I know that for some guys it will be day 1, or day 5, or day 1-10. But I figure if I can stay strong through one day of heavy temptation and the need to MO, I can do it for multiple days, because on the other side are days like today where I have little to no desire to do it and I'm able to focus on work, music, and other things.

One day at a time. Some will be harder than others. But I am even more sure now that I can do this after my near slip yesterday. Giving in only trains your brain and body that this previous behavior is something you should be doing.

 

[BabySteps]

Hey JasonGuitar

I agree, giving in does train our brains to give in more!
But it's easier to give in than to resist that's why is so hard.

We just have to keep going no matter what. Our brains will be rewired the normal way at the end of it all.

Let the fight continue!

 

[JasonGuitar]

Right. I look forward to a day where the urges are far less than they are now, or completely go away. When I won't have to consciously stop myself.

 

[BabySteps]

Hey JasonGuitar,

By spending alot of hours, days, weeks, months and years consuming Porn, we started this habit of leaving in a virtual world. Our bodies get excited by 2D images on the screen than a real woman. Completely going away will take alot of time.

Imagine you rebooted for a whole 6 months, something negative happens to your family. You are stressed and vulnerable, which can trigger the edge to view something to keep your mind occupied with something but the negative event, which you'll end up PMOing. We always have to be on guard.

The possibility of a porn free life is there!

 

[BabySteps]

Day 0 again,

Tough couple of days, feeling very stressed. Falling asleep is a struggle.

Spent an hour jerking off to Pornhub.

Will rise again, missing the control I had the previous weeks. But I won't give up, I refuse to let this hold me back again.

The struggle continues!!

 

[danbegin]

totally agree guys it gets real tough some times. I've been addicted to it for over 20yrs. It's always made me feel bad about myself but i figured that as the chinese proverb says "the journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step" I have relapsed so many times but i keep on trying.

Also looking for an accountability partner can help. Pm me if you are

 

[BabySteps]

Hey DanBegin,

I've never had a Accountability partner myself.
What I do is read ppls stories and comments if I feel like. Reading other peoples reboot journey has been a source of motivation to keep going forward. I don't know if it will work for you.

Peace!

 

[BabySteps]

Day 1, local time 07:48am

Managed to resist the edge to masturbate 30 minutes back.

I want to stay clean for at least a week.

Moving forward with a positive outlook!

 

[BabySteps]

Day 3, local time 08:02am

Thinking of disconnecting for a month or so. Stopping to buy data for month or more, because having data increases the likelihood of wanting approval by which if I don't get I start feeling sad.

Hope this will work!