My previous message has got me thinking about my secret life porn had me create. I wonder what other people have done to split their porn selves from their real selves?
I did the following:
- multiple fake email accounts for signing up to websites that require that sort of thing.
- A program that enables me to hide files and folder on my drive, which can only be opened with a password. This was the mist fucked up thing for me with porn. I was a collector, sometimes amassing hundreds of GB of pics and vids, but I never looked at it. I just looked for more, new stuff, and then stored it. Every once in a while I would delete it all in a fury of bravado that I was quitting porn for good. Then, a few days later, I would start collecting again. It was creepy and I did not connect it with the person I consider myself to be. Worst of all, it became as more about the collecting of rare, new or enticing images as it was about ejaculation. I spent hours looking and downloading, selecting and cataloging. I placed my porn into folder and subfolders. I was more organised with my porn than I was with my own finances.
- A program for downloading multiple images simultaneously. Often I would only open one or two pictures in a gallery and then just select the whole thing and download it. I would then probably never look at that gallery again, but I just had to have it. I also had to have a downloader that could circumvent the ads and pop-ups of imagehosting sites. And, when that failed, I would have to open and download each separate image in a gallery, even if it took hours.
- A program to rip vidoes off tube sites. Most of the time I only wanted to watch the last few minutes of a porn video, leading up to the ejaculation, so I would skip to that part and then rip only that section.
- A 64GB locked flash drive. This was an attempt to move my porn off my laptop. Unfortunately 64GB was not enough space and, fortunately now that I look back, I lost it pretty quickly. There is possibly a porn loaded flash drive somewhere in my house. Luckily it is encrypted, but I hope I do not find it, I might be tempted to review what was on there.
- Set my browser to never store history or cache temp items. I would also clear my cache regularly. I never like incognito or private browsing, because I wanted some history, at least for as long as the browser was open, so that I could revisit websites easily later on.
There were many other things I tried and used over the years, but that was my basic toolkit.
Thinking about it now, I wonder how the porn industry makes any money at all. I am no hacker, but I always found it very easy to find ways of getting the pics or videos I wanted for free. That was what made porn so dangerous for me. I am not willing to pay the crazy monthly subscriptions most sites charge. Maybe if the porn industry could keep a tighter grip on its content I might not have gotten quite so comfortable with porn in my life