I?m in my mid 40s and sadly, porn?s been there in one way or another since my teenage years. I?ve always thought that I could manage it but after few years trying to get out, I realized that nope I cannot. Porn addiction is a very powerful addiction but you all know that....Anyway, I?m married and have kids and we are doing really fine as a family but I have the strong feeling that I could have a much much much more intimate relation with my partner. I have the strong feeling that I betray her every-time I watch/masturbate on porn (which depending on the cycle, it can be everyday) and that makes me feel absolutely miserable. It is eating me alive not to mention the time and energy I waste on it. I do not know how I managed to keep my ?little? secret away form her. We have some sort of regular sex life (I guess) and although we do not ?dance? often, it is a weekly thing. Anyhow, I feel really sick of porn and I am determined to stop it forever but I?m scared because it?s not the first time I feel this way. However, it is the first time I share my situation and I am very grateful to this forum and to you all. I have red a lot about pornography and addictions and the approach of reboot nation here is ?I believe? very much right......by the way, for the first time in a loooong period of time, I?ve just made my first week sober.....