At this point I am ashamed to look back on my journal. Is it because I have changed so much? One thing I learned from rebooting is that I never knew myself. I was always putting different masks for each day. Never came in touch with myself.
I made a post few weeks ago about the self - talking issue. Thats it. Thats why I've been having endless conversations with myself when I was alone. There was all this duality within me. Who I think I was vs who I really was. Sometimes I had a better image than I am sometimes a worse image. I felt happy and I felt sad. Now I don't feel anything in particular. Its not all the time like this, but Its very beautiful. I feel a lot less in control of myself, or to put it better, I don't feel the need to control myself.
Socrates used to say "Know thyself" . I guess I realize the gravity of these words now.
I made a post few weeks ago about the self - talking issue. Thats it. Thats why I've been having endless conversations with myself when I was alone. There was all this duality within me. Who I think I was vs who I really was. Sometimes I had a better image than I am sometimes a worse image. I felt happy and I felt sad. Now I don't feel anything in particular. Its not all the time like this, but Its very beautiful. I feel a lot less in control of myself, or to put it better, I don't feel the need to control myself.
Socrates used to say "Know thyself" . I guess I realize the gravity of these words now.