Couldn't really more angry/upset with myself, so at least I can be a warning to others.
Recovering from PIED, today was my 70th day free from PMO. This streak was (hopefully is) hard mode at my very first attempt. I've noticed so much progress, some of the superpowers that are talked about as well as considerable return to normality from my old pal.
Lord knows why I did it, I can't even explain my logic to you. I think I just wanted to test it, but maybe it was to make me feel normal. I had a hard-on, and I decided to put a condom on, and literally just the pressure of it resulted in me O'ing. I felt like all the benefits, the confidence, the testosterone and the progress just left with that one mistake. It feels like 70 days of progress thrown away by some stupid decision. 20 days from the 90 I made an error.
So before I ask my questions I want to be a warning- Please don't do anything like I did, even if its not the same circumstance. Whether its just looking at that one picture, or just touching it slightly- stay away from it. Don't undo what you've been working on.
What I now need to ask-
Firstly- How much progress have I undone? I would like to clarify that I didn't M when this happened, and there was no stimulation from P or anything at all close, there was no screen around me when it happened. But obviously I O'd.
Secondly- is it necessarily a bad thing? The circumstances under which it happened suggest I was clearly pent up in that sense and it took not much to trigger it?
Thirdly- Can I still say count my streak for P+M? Being a PIED problem, my issue has always been with these two and not O- strictly I am still clean from those for 70 days onwards in that sense.
Finally- Does anyone have any idea of the impact on the rest of my life? I was noticing real benefits in both training and my confidence, will those be gone now or will my testosterone remain at the higher levels I've been enjoying..
If you can answer anything or offer any advice that would be a massive help, I'm fairly distraught. And one last time for all reading, please don't make the mistake I did.
Good luck all x
Recovering from PIED, today was my 70th day free from PMO. This streak was (hopefully is) hard mode at my very first attempt. I've noticed so much progress, some of the superpowers that are talked about as well as considerable return to normality from my old pal.
Lord knows why I did it, I can't even explain my logic to you. I think I just wanted to test it, but maybe it was to make me feel normal. I had a hard-on, and I decided to put a condom on, and literally just the pressure of it resulted in me O'ing. I felt like all the benefits, the confidence, the testosterone and the progress just left with that one mistake. It feels like 70 days of progress thrown away by some stupid decision. 20 days from the 90 I made an error.
So before I ask my questions I want to be a warning- Please don't do anything like I did, even if its not the same circumstance. Whether its just looking at that one picture, or just touching it slightly- stay away from it. Don't undo what you've been working on.
What I now need to ask-
Firstly- How much progress have I undone? I would like to clarify that I didn't M when this happened, and there was no stimulation from P or anything at all close, there was no screen around me when it happened. But obviously I O'd.
Secondly- is it necessarily a bad thing? The circumstances under which it happened suggest I was clearly pent up in that sense and it took not much to trigger it?
Thirdly- Can I still say count my streak for P+M? Being a PIED problem, my issue has always been with these two and not O- strictly I am still clean from those for 70 days onwards in that sense.
Finally- Does anyone have any idea of the impact on the rest of my life? I was noticing real benefits in both training and my confidence, will those be gone now or will my testosterone remain at the higher levels I've been enjoying..
If you can answer anything or offer any advice that would be a massive help, I'm fairly distraught. And one last time for all reading, please don't make the mistake I did.
Good luck all x