SkazkiDreamin82
Member
Hey, all. I've got an addiction-prone personality. And I've acknowledged to myself for a while that my use of electronic media--especially erotica--borders on addiction. And in the case of the erotic stuff, full well crosses over into addiction. I've realized it with the intermittent erectile dysfunction problems I've had over the years. My ED will come and go, but always seems to crop up whenever I delve into porn.
That's not all---porn is making me sick mentally and emotionally, too. More recently I've gotten into major time-suckers such as writing pornographic stories on websites like Lushstories; or dirty-chatting in Discord chats, "role-playing" with other dudes and mutually fapping to photos of girls we know in real life. The other night I caught myself secretly snapping pics of a girl I knew at a house party, so that I could use the photos later in circle-jerks with other Discord pervs. Hopefully, no one caught me. Hopefully. In any case, I knew in that instant that I am really losing control. And I'm frightened to see where this will lead.
I first read about "no fap" and "reboot" almost four years ago. And I've tried dozens of times over these last four years to go through a no-fap path to recovery on my own. And failed every single time. So tonight I join Reboot Nation, in hopes that maybe here I will find the support I need to help me do what I know in my heart I need to do, and turn off the porn and fapping for good.
That's not all---porn is making me sick mentally and emotionally, too. More recently I've gotten into major time-suckers such as writing pornographic stories on websites like Lushstories; or dirty-chatting in Discord chats, "role-playing" with other dudes and mutually fapping to photos of girls we know in real life. The other night I caught myself secretly snapping pics of a girl I knew at a house party, so that I could use the photos later in circle-jerks with other Discord pervs. Hopefully, no one caught me. Hopefully. In any case, I knew in that instant that I am really losing control. And I'm frightened to see where this will lead.
I first read about "no fap" and "reboot" almost four years ago. And I've tried dozens of times over these last four years to go through a no-fap path to recovery on my own. And failed every single time. So tonight I join Reboot Nation, in hopes that maybe here I will find the support I need to help me do what I know in my heart I need to do, and turn off the porn and fapping for good.