Long story short, a few months ago, I lapsed and then went overboard trying to lock down my internet connection and ended up making it so that my computer couldn't connect to the internet at all. So I had to completely reset it, and I lost my login info for this site.
I sort of just accepted it as something that happened and decided to try living life without the forum. I don't know if it was best or right. I also don't know that it wasn't. It's just what happened. Plus, nothing was happening in life, so I didn't feel very motivated to get back to posting.
I've had the nagging feeling that I should come back and just didn't for whatever reason, but I'm back today.
After my lapse at the start of May and loss of my account, I've had one lapse, really. I think it was the beginning of last month, but I can't totally remember.
Urges have been strong lately, though, and I ended up this morning going to a porn site just to have it open. I wasn't really interested in porn, but I guess I wanted to feel the effects of the anticipation.
So, before today spiraled out of control, I thought now was as good a time as any to come back. Overall, things have been pretty good in terms of dealing with porn, but you're never invincible. I don't know how often I'll be posting, but I thought it was important to link back up with the group. It really has made a positive for me in the past, and there's no reason to give up on that.