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[Rebooter2019]

Hey Ashu,

I know the brain can trick you. Mine as used logic to get me around 5 days ago I was right around 2 weeks and boom. But I know you can recover as well as I know we all can, if we keep going and always do our best!

You're at your second week and that a great thing, just keep going man!!

Stay Strong

 

[Ashu001]

Day 15,16 and17/45

Days going completely fine. Only few times I had the urge to watch porn. I didn?t look at porn at all but came around few images but I really didn?t feel anything at all. Images are not my trigger video games are. On day 16 I did had a best orgasm ever through oral sex. I don?t know if I should count it as relapsed but first time in a while my face went all red. That?s was amazing and orgasm was intense aswell. Everything going fine. Keeping myself busy really helping with all these.
Today is day 17. I?m not going to do any silly shit today coz of limited time I have. Working today and then off to stadium. All the best to all the guys out there!
We can do this

 

[Ashu001]

18/45
Again, everything seems alright. No urges unless the girl is really fine. Nice sunny warm weather here. In two days the score will be 20 days. So I have watched no porn. Only few explicit images by mistake but I?ll control them. I?m giving my mind so much to do. As a result it doesn?t have time to think about porn. We all go this. Cheers for the new life.

 

[Rebooter2019]

Nice job, man! You're on the right track! Watch out for to explicit image, you never know what they might trigger!

Keep going man!!

 

[Ashu001]

Nice job, man! You're on the right track! Watch out for to explicit image, you never know what they might trigger!

Keep going man!!

Thanks man. I?ll get there this time. All the best on your work mate.

 

[Rebooter2019]

Yes you will!! Thanks

 

[Ashu001]

19,20 and 21/45
Both 19 and 20 were kinda sad. I wanted to watch porn to make it go away but I didn?t. Especially yesterday I woke up with low energy. Didn?t wanted to do anything at all. But I survived some how and will in future. I did had a glance of porn that was by mistake. I wasn?t searching or anything. In group chat one of the guy sent it. I didnt realize it, my bad. But will stay out of that now.
Today is going pretty smooth. No urges at all. Woke up with hard on. It?s hot weather here in nz today. Keep on going guys.

 

[Ashu001]

22 and 23/45
There were times when I wanted to watch porn for a second. But I didn?t. So far I?m really good. I don?t think I?ll face the flat line. I been trying to quit it for almost 3 year now. I don?t have big urges yet to watch but let?s see what I make of future.
For a moment, I got really horny but couple of deep breaths did the trick to control it. So it?s been 23 days without porn and 21 without masturbation.
Remember this is a life long session not 45 or 90 days

 

[Rebooter2019]

Nice job man! And you're completely right, in my opinion, a real reboot is lifelong commitment. You must keep at it or it is not a real reboot, cause you'll still have these old pathways all too ready to come back in strenght!

 

[Ashu001]

24 and 25/45
I had massive urge to masturbate yesterday. Today I had the urge for sex and p. Today being a Valentine?s Day been really hard. But if thought about it deeply it?s not really a problem. Being single is fun but you do want other significant at some stage in you life. But not for now. Take it easy brothers. Only 20 days left. I already crossed the half way. Only 20 more days yay, after that target will be 90 days.
Cheers

 

[Ashu001]

26,27 and 28/45
Didn?t update the form for 3 days. Been busy with uni and work. I did had de hours but surprisingly I didn?t think to watch porn. I guess my brain getting used to work without porn. I have been watching since the age of 18, I?m 23 now and would be 24 in March I want to give free my self from this addiction. This will be birthday present for my self. Also, I want to build myself into something exciting. With all these free time I can learn lots of things. And, I have been doing that from last 28 days. It would be awesome to see the person I can become without PMO. I am already excited on this project. If any of you out there need any help, pls don?t be shy. Message as soon as possible.
Cheers

 

[Ashu001]

29 and 30/45 I had sex yesterday. I was too drunk. I was not fully erected but only hard enough for penetration. I?m making progress slow but getting there. If I wasn?t drunk I would have been able to do much. But it?s alright. It?s good to feel a woman body. But I didn?t had any dopamine produce from that at all. I mean nothing happen at all no production of chemical at all. Is it normal?

 

[Ashu001]

39/45
hey guys today is day 39. In 6 days i will achieve my goal of 45 days. during the whole process i didnt get any strong urges to watch the porn. maybe i had but i was too focused on other things. i think my PIED is cured. i had sex 7 times in last three days. i finished really fast on first time but after that was taking a while. my penis has become more sensitive and can be easily aroused by kissing. but i think i still have more ground to cover. 5 year of destruction can't be cured fully in just mere days but i am going PMO free for the rest of my life. i dont have any intention to watch porn but you never know when the urges come back. Once i finished the 45 days challenge i will scale it to 90 days. hopefully everything will go nice with me and fellow brothers and sisters on this site. sorry, i haven't been paying attention a lot on this journal.
key is too make yourself busy. if you are feeling sad, ask yourself why are you feeling sad. what could be the reason behind it?

 

[Rebooter2019]

Nice to hear man!! I'm really happy for you, just keep going! You seems to get yourself busy really well! Watch out for possible cravings in dead times! Since you didn't had any to your knowledge, keep doing everything you've been doing up to this point! It work and that's great!!

Stay strong my friend!!

 

[Ashu001]

Thanks mate. I will. All the best to you.

 

[Ashu001]

day 50/90
This is the longest I have been without porn. If feels amazing. I?m writing this at the beach. Sorry for not posting. It?s been a while. I have completed my 45 day of streak and now on a journey to 90 days. I?m more thinking of it as a long lasting job instead of just 90 days. It helps to think of it as long term job instead of 90. It helps both you and your brain deciding what?s best and how to deal with your emotions. I am getting erection randomly. Sometimes in public places but I am not really embarrassed by it but happy

 

[cullas]

There?s more to active living than just exercising more, and for some, it starts with making a commitment to keep moving throughout your day. When you make your health a priority, you will live a more fulfilled life.

 

[Ashu001]

There?s more to active living than just exercising more, and for some, it starts with making a commitment to keep moving throughout your day. When you make your health a priority, you will live a more fulfilled life.

yes you are right mate. That's what i really meant by that anyway. Be more outside and just being yourself is the best way to go about this addiction.

 

[Ashu001]

67/90

hey guys, been pretty wild here in nz. 
i have been through both bad and good days. i have masturbated twice in last 2 weeks and had sex 4-5 times. i am enjoying it but erection is not at full. i wouldnt blame on it. i have to cover more days to get it back. i know i wasnt supposed to masturbate but i gave in the moment. i was watching a movie and the sex scene from there gave sweet drop of dopamine. i watched the little cam show yesterday but masturbate without watching it. in both occasion i wasnt full erected but i didnt feel any regret afterward either. i did think of watching porn on both occasion but i did not! yay!!! only 23 more days to goal. i have to be more focused on my study and well being. i dont see myself watching porn at the moment, which is good. i just need to be more careful of my intentions.  lets hope for the best. take care guys 

 

[Ashu001]

2nd week of April to today. I have been masturbate quite a few times to porn let?s say 20. Before starting this journey I had video games as a trigger but now it?s something else. I know what it is and I will eliminate it just like I did with video games. I will be starting a new goal of 30 days again. I?m sorry to letting all you guys down. I did had sex frequently but not with the erection I wanted. I slipped through my own rules but it will not happen again. Feels so good to write it I?ve r here. This time I will go full on no PMO. Wish me luck.