Day 51
Thanks for the reply Balboa. I probably will throw out that fake vag eventually. The last time I had a collection of porn was probably 19 years ago or so. I had some magazines. I went to throw them out, but before I did, I cut out the best pics in all of them and kept them folded up in the 1 magazine I decided to hold on to. The magazine I decided to keep was one from the 70's and I just thought it was cool. My wife found it in my tool box in the garage and was super pissed when she opened it and found all the cut outs I was hanging on to. I never really kept a collection again. Even when the internet came around I was always nervous to keep a collection for too long in fear she would find it. She's pretty smart and I didn't want to chance her finding a hidden folder. When I started using a smartphone it just became too easy fo find exactly what I wanted. If I did download a video, I never kept it for more than 24 hours. Streaming was the way to go. I am really amazed how far porn has evolved. Before I quit, I was able to strap on a pair of virtual reality goggles, break out the fleshlight, and have a 360? view of any girl, or multiple girls, in any sex fueled fantacy scenario my perverted mind could conjure up. Seriously how much better could it get? I am so grateful I didn't ignore the damage it was doing as soon as I started showing symptoms of PIED. Also, as easy as it was to find porn, it was equally as easy to find the solution to my problem. The internet is full of good things too. YBOP truly opened my eyes. I am also lucky to have a SO. She is my motivation even if she's unaware of it.
Now, we are going to bob evans for breakfast before the church crowd gets there. Have a good Sunday.
- powering through