blueRaccoon
Active Member
Thank you Rebooter and BlueHeronFan.
The relapse was worst and really shook me up. I have installed filters to make sure and restricted the laptop to a bare minimum so that I don't access porn over my laptop. Things were good even after that. I managed to get see some nudes somehow on two occasions, though I did not follow exposure to MO but that guilt for me and for my brain, not receiving the pleasure which it usually got really made me go crazy. I was angry for no reason and there were plenty of negative thoughts. Somehow I initiated a conversation about it with my sibling in a cryptic way. The discussion turned from cryptic porn issue to some other issue, and it was heartfelt conservation. I felt good after it and things have been normal since then. I am yet to adopt a good lifestyle hence the problem is not solved yet. I will take the necessary steps in days to come.
Your support has something which kept me focused on the issue, prevented me from going crazy and feeling uncontrolled. This forum has always reminded me that this addiction is something I have to fight and win over and I can do that. Thanks a lot, guys. I won't be continuing to post here on a daily basis but once in a while, I feel this is to be a right approach for me for now as I want to minimize the laptop use. However, I still will be checking out your journals and do look forward to your support when I feel down.
All the best guys. We can win this.
The relapse was worst and really shook me up. I have installed filters to make sure and restricted the laptop to a bare minimum so that I don't access porn over my laptop. Things were good even after that. I managed to get see some nudes somehow on two occasions, though I did not follow exposure to MO but that guilt for me and for my brain, not receiving the pleasure which it usually got really made me go crazy. I was angry for no reason and there were plenty of negative thoughts. Somehow I initiated a conversation about it with my sibling in a cryptic way. The discussion turned from cryptic porn issue to some other issue, and it was heartfelt conservation. I felt good after it and things have been normal since then. I am yet to adopt a good lifestyle hence the problem is not solved yet. I will take the necessary steps in days to come.
Your support has something which kept me focused on the issue, prevented me from going crazy and feeling uncontrolled. This forum has always reminded me that this addiction is something I have to fight and win over and I can do that. Thanks a lot, guys. I won't be continuing to post here on a daily basis but once in a while, I feel this is to be a right approach for me for now as I want to minimize the laptop use. However, I still will be checking out your journals and do look forward to your support when I feel down.
All the best guys. We can win this.